Enchanted

I'm always turning to my trusty blog to express my deepest feelings. I'm not sure if anyone I know still or actually reads this by now. 

As I pen this with tears in my eyes....

It's been a whirlwind of emotions since the end of last week, no surprises that my weekend did not get any better. I'll admit, I was to blamed for this whole thing. I know I'm not the easiest to deal with, it takes a man with extreme patience to tolerate me. 

He has been nothing but patient with me,

I knew how he felt, I took him for granted 

I ruined it for everyone, I have myself to blame 

It's really hard to let you go

I can't bring myself to erase our memories 

I can't bring myself to forget you existed

I've fallen too deep into you 

I can't say goodbye

I replayed every word you said in my head, it felt like you were dropping hints. That this isn't what you want. Speaking to you again, brings back so much fond memories. I wanted to turn back time, back to when things were happier. I have to stop doing this to myself. 

You wanted to take a break and I agreed because I knew you wanted it. I'm not the type to sit around and wait but in this case, I have to be patient. I'm no longer sure if I'm waiting for a happy miracle or just answers. Either way, I'm prepared for the worse. 

You wanted us to be more than friends but less than lovers. 

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What makes us when we're more than friends but less than lovers? 

This type of relationship can be seen as a stepping stone to a more committed relationship, or it can be an end goal in itself. It’s characterized by a level of emotional intimacy and physical closeness that is typically reserved for romantic partners, but it lacks the commitment and exclusivity that are associated with traditional relationships.

They were more than friends

She looked at him like no one had before

He held her like the world was ending 

They could stare at each other for hours 

Without 

A 

Single 

Word

And at the end of the day 

She loves him 

And he, 

Well he knew he could never love her

Not in the way she deserved

Not in the way she loves him 

And thus, 

They would always be more than friends 

But less than lovers. 

我只是太愛你

It sounds a lot like 2 people being friends with benefits albeit -in contrast to friends with benefits, this situationship involve emotional dependency from both parties. 

I want us to be exclusive, I know our situation is complicated, its tough, it's unique, it has no label but I would like the chance to call you mine and mine only. 

I'm penning down my feelings, the might be jumbled but that's how I feel. I don't think I can say goodbye, neither do I want to be your friend, I don't think I cant handle watching you meeting someone new neither do I want to miss out on milestones in your life. The thought of these makes my heart aches. Why can't things come easy for us? 

You're the air I breathe

You're the pasta to my meatballs 

You're the butterflies in my stomach

You're the forever to my love 

You're my person