I Fell Open

This is a very difficult post to write, 

Our worlds collided
Meeting you was enchanting 
Our love has gotten stronger 
Blood rush, nervous wreck
My heart was full
...for a while 

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We've made it through a year 
And while I believed we can make it through another
The anxiety to have you close grew
I needed you here
I wanted you close
The idea of you is no longer an idea 
I wanted it to come through 

Things did not turn out the way we wanted it to be
We had more downs than ups 
Although our ups were amazing and blissful 
Many of times I wanted to say goodbye 
But I couldn't 
I love you too much to let you go 
I'm unwilling to let you find another 
Selfish, is I

We ended things a few times
Thinking it was for the best 
But we always found our way back to each other
Is this True Love? No. 
Because I don't believe in true love. 
But I do believe in coincidences
We were just 2 souls who met on different circumstances 
Separated by distance and time 

We believed our love is stronger than anything
But is love enough? 
Or will distance and time break us first? 

I'm currently sitting on the bridge
Unsure of the path that I should take 
Should I take a chance and wait and see
Or should I decide my own coincident?
Sam said as long as you love him,  
I should believe because it's alright. 
How do you know? How do you know, Sam? 

I don't want to fight
I don't want to ruin what we currently have
I know you have bigger problems to deal with 
Therefore I'm penning my thoughts here
Hopefully someday, somehow
You'll get the chance to see this
And hopefully by then
May we be in a safe space together

Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you