Monday, May 6, 2024
The One I Love Truly (circa 2015)
And the eve of my birthday
You picked me up in your white CRV
Your warm and friendly embrace welcomes the start of our friendship
Little did we know, cupid already had plans for us that night :)
I'll always remember our first kiss
I'll always remember how you couldn't get your hands off me
I never kiss on first dates,
I'll always remember how I kept telling myself that I won't be seeing you for the next decade,
So, wth! Kiss him anyway!
The next morning was a reality check.
I couldn't stop thinking about you
Yet the voice in my head tells me otherwise
The voice stayed until you dropped me a text, one thing led to another - we were out on a date for my birthday :)
That was by-far, my favourite weekend.
I wanted to kiss you again
I wanted to hold your hand again
I was shy to initiate since I had no alcohol influence (yet)
But you did in the end, without any help from me!
Remember when we lost our way in the car park?
I remember I struggled not to sweat (HAHAH!) and to play it cool
But GAWD DAMN Those carpark lifts were hella stuffy!
Remember when I didn't want to go home on my birthday?
Remember when you finally told me about your family background?
I remember them all. Every single bit of it.
The night my dad grounded me
Was the night I called to cry a river because I won't be able to see you before you leave
I knew right there and then that I was slowly falling in love with you
You're my perfect escape
My happy pill
My comfort zone
My favourite pillow talk
My first impression(s) of you:
1) Cute
2) Good thing he's taller than me
3) THAT dimple tho'
4) He's got game
5) Nice guy
6) He'll make a good friend
Monday, April 22, 2024
Enchanted
我只是太愛你
Thursday, November 10, 2022
I Fell Open
This is a very difficult post to write,
Our worlds collided
Meeting you was enchanting
Our love has gotten stronger
Blood rush, nervous wreck
My heart was full
...for a while
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We've made it through a year
And while I believed we can make it through another
The anxiety to have you close grew
I needed you here
I wanted you close
The idea of you is no longer an idea
I wanted it to come through
Things did not turn out the way we wanted it to be
We had more downs than ups
Although our ups were amazing and blissful
Many of times I wanted to say goodbye
But I couldn't
I love you too much to let you go
I'm unwilling to let you find another
Selfish, is I
We ended things a few times
Thinking it was for the best
But we always found our way back to each other
Is this True Love? No.
Because I don't believe in true love.
But I do believe in coincidences
We were just 2 souls who met on different circumstances
Separated by distance and time
We believed our love is stronger than anything
But is love enough?
Or will distance and time break us first?
I'm currently sitting on the bridge
Unsure of the path that I should take
Should I take a chance and wait and see
Or should I decide my own coincident?
Sam said as long as you love him,
I should believe because it's alright.
How do you know? How do you know, Sam?
I don't want to fight
I don't want to ruin what we currently have
I know you have bigger problems to deal with
Therefore I'm penning my thoughts here
Hopefully someday, somehow
You'll get the chance to see this
And hopefully by then
May we be in a safe space together
Please don't be in love with someone else
Please don't have somebody waiting on you