Confetti of Felicity

A Vampire Story

2012-01-15T11:22:00.003+08:00

I am back on my regular routine, the one I had a few years ago :) Hello, Chictopia! I've seen a couple of similar pieces that I currently own. I love how you can mix & match your outfits without having to purchase a new piece simply to make it work that way.

I have been busy, when I'm off work, the only thing I look forward to is my bed. That's how much I miss sleeping and dazing in broad daylight! Bring back those schooling days! If I had the choice, I would choose to have 48 hours in a day and 24 hours of non-working hours! Only one can dream, eh?

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Cirque Du Freak on a Sunday morning, I've read the entire series of this story. There's a saying that goes, "Never watch a movie after you've read the book". I can relate, it's reckon that you read the entire series. Remember the mention of Mr. Tiny at the beginning of this movie? In the book(s), you'll find out more about him (Mr. Tiny), Harkat's origins and Darren's friend who desperately wants to be a vampire - well he did turn into one alright, unfortunately, he fell on the wrong side of the vampire world!

You may find more about the author to the series here, Darren Shan.

P.s: I think Darren's friend, Steve (that bad boy), is cute! :)

I'm heading back to my movie now. I wish they would follow the exact story line. It would be awesome if our imaginations could be brought to life! :)

Cross My Heart Another Day

2011-12-21T23:27:00.001+08:00

That awkward dance move
That two left feet on the dance floor
The many oblivious things you do that attracts me to you
The many ways you find to crack lame jokes
The way you always have your eyes on me
The way, the way I love you.

I have been away for a long time since I have my fingers dancing here. Boy, do I miss having to blog about my daily rambles of everything what nots :) Because this place hold sentimental values, it's been with me since I discovered my love for random babbles! So, guess what has life like been ever since? :)

Here's what I did,
- I completed my life in University
- I was left heartbroken but I got over the pain and moved on
- I climbed the invisible ladder,
simply because I know I can do better
- I adapted to change and made it my own
- I FINALLY spring cleaned my closet! *gleee
- I can officially spend on my very own hard earned money :)

Because I enjoy keeping certain things secretive, simply because. Therefore, my place of work will be for me to know and for you to find out. On another note, I have a bunch of new obsessions. One of them would always and forever include my new love for shoes. I never knew I had the ability to hog the entire rack! *smirk*

So, Christmas is around the corner. Has anyone made plans to travel? To shop? To be under the mistletoe? Okay fine, we had a teeny weeny Christmas celebration at the office - besides the free food, we received dope gifts. I adored my snowman thermo thingymajig!

Thank you new found friend! It's always fun to unwrap gift boxes! Why? Because you never know what you might find in it. Whether a tiny gift in a really big box. Or a potentially-recycled-gift. Or, something you might just love and adore! :) Well, it's always the thought that counts, no? :)

Like what I always do. I do not blog pictures, hence - the words and the no-show of pictures. Well, you can always drop by my DA account for my photos! :) I can't promise you pretty pictures as I'm no pro, then again! You asked for it, you got it! :P

Floating away,
The clouds above my head,
The sunshine across my face,
And all I can think of is you...

Skyler Stonestreet - Dream Away

Because I have been away for so long, here's a picture to end my post! :)

xoxo

TipsyDarlene

I'm Busy You're Ugly Have a Nice Day

2011-08-31T16:26:00.001+08:00

Maybe I was just being plain emotional when I wrote my last post. Yeah, proally was. I have friends commenting that my blog's sooo emo. What's wrong with that? I should maybe change the color of my background then. Milky pink maybe? Then I can have sparkles everytime your cursor moves.

HOW SMEXY IS THAT?!

Haa. Anyhoots, last couple of weeks were a bunch of crappy PMS-ing week. Not that I was pms-ing or anything. My mind was loaded with to-dos and more to-dos somewhere deep inside me brains. BIG sigh. Yes, if you have not already know, I'm already of a certain age and is already off Daddy's allowance, so no, I'm no where near Daddy's girl.

Haven't watch much TV, only watch to catch Grey's Anatomy and The Glee Project. Don't chu dare effing judge me by the show I watch! One thing tho, the drama on Grey's Anatomy are sometimes too stressful to watch, seriously, the producing team are really good at keeping the viewers!! I mean, who sleeps around like that? "I'm depress, and Mr. Pretty Eyes comes along and confesses his likes for me - and the next think I know, we're in the shower making out". Gawd! How sexy is that? WAIT! That isn't my point, my point is....THAT'S HOW THEY KEEP US WATCHING! cause' I'm totally not rooting for those two shower duo to be together for long. Proally just FWB for now, I hope! :)

Again, HOW SMEXY IS THAT?!?!? haa.

On a serious note, I finally had the courage to paint my nails. hahahah! (How is that even serious? Dooood!). I just hope I will not leave smudge stains when I take a shower later because when that happens, I have the tendency to washed em' off and re-do them nails....few days later. haaa.

Seriously Grace, your nails?! Clearly I have nothing better to talk about. Oh wait, I do! Scroll down, read through my previous post. Yes it was about a guy and no we are no where near in a relationship or anything complicated (me thinks!) Whatever, so he finally replied. Read on.

Let's not get emotional
Let's just do it with sex
Let's just stay friends
Let's not keep "us" attached with strings
Let's just forget what we said
Let's just start over

Hey stranger,
Well, I'm sorry,
I cant' bring myself to take you in
Sorry if you're stuck alone in the cold
This is my goodbye to your hello
I once gave you everything I had
I won't hate you for long
But I will definitely remember my anger towards you
Not gonna lie, this will be my first and last.

This is his reply and mine. Depending on how your brain functions because they require reading between the lines. And no, whoever said this was about sex. -.- I said read BETWEEN THE LINES!

Watch me run butt naked bitch!

Infidelity: Remember us?

2011-08-27T23:07:00.000+08:00

I never could understand the truth behind those feelings
I promised myself to never love you fully
Your sudden disappearance got me confused
You left me high and dry
Those thunderstorm nights we had together
The daylight laughter you had given to me
The fear of losing you gets stronger every day
Maybe, just maybe you're gone for good
The fear of knowing the truth to your departure
My harbored feelings will go
Slowly but surely
I just wish this phase of forgetting you would be easier than painful
The confusion, the heartbreaks,
The infidelity I had with you was something I would never forget
Words spoken will never be brought to life
Your touches that will never be back
That rhythm beat that will always linger in the air
That bare space between us will I always long to fill
Supposed we never ever met
Supposed I never ever called you
Supposed I kept singing love songs
Just to stay on that familiar path
The lesson that I will never forget
I wish, I wish, I could forget you in a heartbeat.

That, was an update. Yes, I have the tendency to write about my emotions - because I'm sensitive like that! There was a saying that goes, "you'll never realize you had it until you lost it". True enough, I lost that one person whom had known me inside out, upside down.

If you're reading this, I'm very sorry for what I said. I wish I could turn back time and change the way I said those things but I can't. What's done, is done. For future sake, I hope you had at least thought about me once in your life and, that you could eventually come around. *smiles*

Because, I really miss you, dummy!

The Last Curtain Fall

2011-07-09T20:10:00.001+08:00

You make me feel all dirty and icky inside
You make me want to make rough love to you
You make me want to kick you hard enough for your to feel me
You make me feel all crazy in love for you
You make me want to be someone vulgar for you
You just make me bad bitch!

That! Was totally inappropriate for my blog, or is it? I'm feeling awesome and bad at the same time, so please be nice to me this time around. What did I say about an update soon? Well, although it did not exactly happen withing last couple of weeks but, hey! An update, is an update!!

Speaking of awesome and bad, it's been a long time since I've logged on to my Facebook page - true enough, the news feed were flooding with updates I was already expecting to see! I'm not sure if I want to take any sides, judging by the amount of power every country's government has towards their society, I'm not quite sure I should have a say here. It may be different in Australia, yeah sure! With you marching around their country protesting on something happening here - I, I really do not see any logic there. Why? You ran out of balls to join the team here? So quit persuading everyone to be part of your team back there just because you aint' got no balls for a face-to-face confrontation.

I have no idea what I had just said but I'm hoping it's discreet enough for you readers to read between the line. You have NO IDEA how much trouble you had caused us! I'm sorry, if I were to have protest of complain about something, I weight the pros and cons - I do not just take a stupid move just so that I could have something better to do on a weekend.

I have tons of anger and frustration just waiting to explode, but I chose to keep it to myself. Sensitive issues are definitely not something one should say out aloud. So, to hell with all these angers, I'm off to go TRY to enjoy my weekend with a bunch of movies, least what I'm doing is clean! :) MUTHAFACKARS!

This is all crap. I hate that everything is in such a mess right now. =( xx

I Bet Chu' Don't

2011-06-19T17:22:00.002+08:00

I apologize for the lack of updates these...months. I know I've been apologizing for the last what? 10 posts? Now that assignments are no longer in the way, I can now do whatever the fuck I want - I can even stay up late! haaa. Mehn, that was one childish remark. -.-

Anyhoots, did I mention that I had been on an island vacation sometime back and another a few days ago? No? Well, I know I'd cursed bloggers who blogs with pictures but - since I have not been here for so long, figured it'd be good to upload a picture or two. Just so you can catch a glimpse of what I had experienced.

I came back with a good tan on my face -.- and awesome shoulder muscles yo! Ah yes, the beach boys were not bad. Tho, I much prefer the ones on my first island vacay! =) Without further a due, here are the pictures.
(I'll try not to go crazy with my uploads by keeping them few and speaks a thousand words)

Satisfied? :) A couple of these were fresh from edits. You can see more on my DA gallery.

Not promoting, just saying.

The bunch of us are officially missing the island already. I will not reveal where these places are, you just have to find them out on your own. Because I'm secretive, like that! I had not manage to snap many pictures of these beautiful places because I spent most of my time outdoor and I will never ever ever ever put my camera at risk! Having to drop a DSLR into the river was bad enough. =/ (Yeah, it happened long time ago!)

Until I can think of something smart to say, till then - please stay tune! I promise an update this week soon! And yes, I'll post up more updates on my next island vacation for the following year.

Crossing Bridges

2011-05-30T12:54:00.002+08:00

We could last the year
We could turn back time
We could pretend that we've never met
Always, always.

Depression kills, depression hurts.
What lies beneath is a series of chapters left unwritten,
patience and kindness are not inspirations to her.
Keeping her lips sealed because things might turn ugly otherwise.

A walk down Verona lane
Memories, whispers, happiness and sorrow altogether,
With my fingers trembling softly on each note,
Conjuring up a series of rhythm made for you,
I miss my hands on you.

So when someone comes up to me and ask, what is love?
I would say, love is something you cannot describe, something that will always be left unspoken.

I have been away for quite sometime, truth to be told - juggling 4 sites at the same time, and only updating 2 of them is not what I call consistent. My consistency in procrastinating has not changed one bit, always longing to relax and forget the world, always thinking of tomorrow that I wish would never come. Soon it will be the end to my everything and a beginning to my something, I can't decided if I'm anxiously looking forward to it. I would very much like to turn things around.

Please be patient with my flaws, it will be all be angled right... soon.

HEY! Big Spender!

2011-05-22T16:18:00.000+08:00

Quick update.

I just heard this song on "GOT TO DANCE UK" (S2). I never knew Shirley Bassey's so hot back in those days. So here's she and her gorgeous dress, guess butt cleavage were a thing back then ehy? Sexay!

p.s: Notice how she moves that booty? HOT DAYM! :)

Quit Complaining, It's Getting Old

2011-04-02T15:00:00.001+08:00

I think people should get over the bad traffic and lack of parking space in Taylor's University College, I mean really? You travel all the way to campus only to complain about the parking space. Doesn't that sound a lil' stupid to you?

Paid alot for the course? Well, there are plenty of other colleges with the SAME course with larger parking spaces.

Why can't you park at Mentari and take a bus? Too stuffy? Then quit complaining already. If not, why study in Taylors? DUMBSHIT! There's always an option to come early to get a parking space.

I would love to see you complain to your employer about the lack of parking space at your work area in the future. p.s: Good luck with that!

Because after all, there will be more intake of students every damn year, what? you expect them to build a building of parking space for you? Did it not occur to you that the same problem might persist and the cycle of complains might start over? Get Real! Earth to BIMBO please!

So instead of complaining, find a way to solve the problem on your own. Like, arriving in a shuttle bus or a cab, you have the brains (everyone is born with one - y'know, that vainy thing in your skull!?) to complain, so go figure!

Let Me Go GaGa

2011-03-07T23:45:00.000+08:00

This will officially be my third attempt writing an opening for my post. And let's just hope I do not hit the 'backspace' button and give up trying.

I always have tons to say but I don't know where to start and in the end - things are always left unsaid. I've been told that I talk to much - most of the time, they're just comments and opinions about well, pretty much everything. I'm just the type that blurts out what's on my mind. I have issues keeping them to myself, on the bright-side! I crack people up with my weird comments. Which is good, right?

Is it just me or is the weather exceptionally hot tonight?

Anyhoots, today, I spent my afternoon stocking up my art drawer. Oh, didn't I tell you? I recently started painting again. Well, actually it was just today, I painted my first work today. I'll upload a preview here.. If I have the time to sort out the pictures on my cell. Or else, please click on the DA monster on your right hand column, it's a deffo to be uploaded there.

Apart from paint brushes and crayons, I've just recently started writing on that old book again. No, that ain't no diary/journal. C'mon, do I sound that girly to you? It's simply a book where I jot down random doodles when, the TV's being hogged, when I have nothing better to do, when I have no books to read, when I rather not do house chores. ha. (no, kidding! FYI, I'm a pretty darn good help at home! thankyouverymuch!)

I have this thing for old movies, well - colored ones at least. I was just watching 'Pretty In Pink' for the 1928374759607 time! Apart from the bad acting, I love the style and settings of these old movies, me thinks I've said this in my previous post (or was it the previous previous one?!). But, that's just me. I'm not expecting anyone to care anywhere. So, I'll be off now. Bye!

You and Eternity

2011-02-26T16:43:00.001+08:00

I hate the feeling of rejection
I hate ditching family plans for friends
I hate last minute changes of plans

Thinking that we were supposedly excluded from that 'adult time' family dinner - I instead made plans with friends, least I would not be spending my dinner time all alone. But nooo! You just had to change the plan, you just couldn't stick to the plan, you just haaad to plan at the very. last. minute. And now, after all that planning with my friends, I can't just bail out! I'm sorta kinda left in a major dilemma, to bail out on friends or to go for that family dinner? Family may mean the world to me but, I need a breather from You.

I find it very hard being nice to you, I can't seem to see things the same way you do, I feel like I have to fight to earn your attention. I feel so trapped in your presence each time - I feel like I'm suffocating, like I'm drowning - being pushed further away.

Someone once told me that "your problems are what you made them to be". So therefore, I should just forget about this and get over it. I'm dissing my family just this once, don't you dare judge me. It's not my fault that plans had been changed at the last minute - they had the whole week to make up their minds but they just had to decide on the day itself!

There, an update for you. I may not be miss popular or miss I'm so gorgeous, I do not give two cents if I have an overflowing account of friends on my Facebook. To hell with that, I'm barely on that damn website anymore. Neither will I ever care if, we're close!

...hence, the bold statement.

Pretty Damn Things

2011-02-22T11:53:00.011+08:00

I somehow feel that I have the need to update this blog. If it wasn't for the two comments on my previous post, I would not have been here in the first place. And because this blog hold sentimental values and other precious links - I find the need to update.

So how was everyone's weekend, week, day, night? Mine? Because nothing interesting was on cable last night, I've decided to spring clean my overflowing miscellaneous drawers. Yep, this is where I store things that I collect - fancy paperbagsssss!!! I spent the entire night dusting and organizing them. Now that everything's packed up, I have no idea where I should store them, the current 4ft wide storage place is just wayy too small, my stash were OVERFLOWING.

And so I decided to catch some late night movies before I sleep my dilemma away. Well, obviously it did not work because here I am, still cracking my head and analyzing every damn shelf in my room with hope that there could be that extra space for my stash. BUT, to no avail. Boo.

Dilemma's aside, my late night movie was ubber old school and inspiring, entitled "Dead Poets Society". I. Loved. It. DPS reminded me of a British movie that I love so much called, "The History Boys". And FYI, this movie was released on the year that I was born. Suh-weet! I should say, the students in DPS resembles the male models today. I mean, just look at their height, style and of course that ever changing hair. This movie makes me want to read poems and be inspired by them dead poets. Hats off to the genius behind this movie, I love the unpredictable ending. So okay, I went a little crazy with the characters in the movies - I googled them. Sad, some of my favorites were only famous for this movie. Nevertheless, they had seized the moment by making the best out of their shot to fame. Carpe Diem.

"For the first time in my whole life, I know what I wanna do!
And for the first time, I'm gonna do it! Carpe diem" ~Neil Perry

I took the pathway on my right then I had dreams of eternity,

The only way to be a happy man, I chose to walk right...

[I do not own this picture - googled!]

This, is my escape.

All At ONCE!

2011-01-19T15:00:00.004+08:00

And so we're back to square one. Have you heard the news? Face ~~crook~~ book will not be around for long. Rumors has it, Facebook will be shutting down on the 15th of March 2011.

I have no clue where the source of information were from - what I know is, if that really is happening - where's everyone going to go? Friendster? Myspace? Gahhhh. Like I said, we're back to square one. Remember the days without having to log on Facebook everyday or checking for updates every damn minute you're logged online?

I remember those days, those were the days I spend my time pasting my room with posters of celebrities and what nots on my wall. Those were also the days where you spend more time listening to the radio for updates and watching MTV after-school programs. Now that I say it out loud, mehn...I led a really plain life. -.-

So whether or not Facebook is shutting down, I'm in no position to stop it. It's not like I know Mark personally. ;) Whatever happens, we just have to deal with it. Cause' trust me, you will eventually adjust to that FACEBOOK-less life.

You can always pick up a new hobby, like...knitting, planting trees or..eating cheese. -.-

seriously?!

p.s: Mind my sarcasm. Lovin' this post! ;)

xxx

TipsyDarlene

Caught. Dead.

2011-01-17T13:49:00.003+08:00

I came across an article - about this 30 year old woman whom had sex with 100 men since her teenage years. This reminds me of Barney from How I Met Your Mother - remember the episode of him saving his 200th girl for this hot blonde? Yeah that episode. I just find it uber amazing on how someone could achieve such amount, not judging - just amazed(?) Your down-below would be hella loose by the time you touch 50. Girl, you gotta slow that horse down.

My blog may be dark and emo at times but hey! I know a thing or two about sex. I just prefer not to touch on it. It invites unnecessary attention from googlers. Although I wouldn't mind the extra few people who stumbles upon my blog. TEE. HEE. *rolls eyes*

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I met you at a friend's party, I did not have the courage to ask for your name - let alone your number. If we were to meet in different situations, I would proally have that confident to work my way through you. Unfortunately, I caught you way off-timing. Somehow just somehow I lost my faith in finding that magic! Everytime I put myself out there, I'm always walking home crashed and burnt. So, to be safe, I prefer to regret my wrong-doings than to end up being swollen again.

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I was just watching When In Rome on Star. (I just had to watch it, I read good reviews bout' it) Too bad, it was as cheesy as cheeseballs can get. No doubt the cast members were hella hot but, cheesy American movies do not always get me sometimes. Anyways, this movie really got me thinking - if I could just focus on work, I could very much lead a life without having to worry about marriage, kids and well a future with someone. That was my initial plan anyways, I've been chewed up and spitted out. So no thank you for the heartbreaks.

Don't go all "awh, you're prince will come one day, you just haven't met the right one." This, my friends, is bull. Yes it may sound comforting, just like how love songs makes you feel all "fussy inside". *rolls eyes* But guess what? If you know me well enough, you'd know that I would be caught dead conforming to loads of crap like that! Meh.

Apart from that, love songs are sometimes okay. Me thinks. =/
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If things were gone

Let it be

Because new things will come by

Eventually...

The landing of the hills

Will bring an end to your disasters

That wish was dying afterall

A hope never promising

Something that we can't always be

I'm must be...

2011-01-09T23:37:00.000+08:00

Slip into the woods

Lets lie on the ground

And play pretend of that great escape

We'll close our eyes and drift into sleep

Soaking our feet into that puddle of mud

Be the passenger of the night

And I'll be the driver of tonight

Let me take you to the places you'll only go with me

That sublime moonlight that's only visible to you and me

It's not anywhere I would rather be

We're getting close now...

...Keeping them whispers locked for eternity

So hello, I'm back after what seems like forever. I haven't been inspired to write - well, I'm always in the mood to write it's only the timing that isn't right. You see, when I have a point to write about I tend to REMEMBER it, which I then forget by the time I get to my computer. Le sigh. I have to start writing down my ideas.

Anyhoots, I have a couple of babbles tonight. First of, I hate looking good in the mornings and my whole outfit tends to wear off and gets all crumply by the end of the day. URGH. I've already have enough to carry in my bag. I don't need and extra load of a carry-all iron. Ew!

Have you ever came across someone you simply dislike. Even if that person has been real nice and a darling to you. In other words, he/she did nothing to piss you off but you just hate talking about and to that person. Have you ever ever? I have, and let me tell you it's sooo good to feel that way. I just hate. Why? In Cantonese we say "yong ge mahn tai" - which means Face Problem. Somehow everything said, and done by that person displeases me. This problem/issue happen to come to me when I received a re-tweet from my friend from his/her tweet. There's a reason why I'm not keeping in touch with you babyboo! :)

That's it for now. I'm off to work on some stuff. I'm distracted. VERY distracted. I'm so sorry. I'll leave after I boldhighlightcolour them fonts. See you soon lovelies!

Launch Yer Rocket

2010-12-27T19:35:00.000+08:00

It's been a while since I wrote on this page. It's been a while since I last shared my stories here.
It's definitely been a while since I logged online using my own computer.

Y'know what it's like to be away from something for so long that you might just need a map to guide you to your normal route - because you've totally forgotten all about them altogether? I feel that way.

It's nearing the end of year 2010. Let's raise our glasses and toast to a better year and of course, "what happened in twenty-ten, stays in twenty-ten". I will not be blogging about how my year has been, I'm pretty sure you've caught bits and pieces of them in my past post, so let's waste no time on repetitions, Shall We?

And speaking of a year end, has anyone came up with their new and improve list of New Year Resolution? Why I say "New and Improve" - well, we ALL KNOW that now EVERYTHING on the list is accomplished. i.e: to eat less. HAH! Speaking of which, I hate it when I'm always gaining the extra weight during the long holiday. Le sigh (once more).

I have a close ~~overflowing~~ filled with clothes. Not complaining, just mentally kicking myself in the head everytime I think about my time wasted on the television, when I could be spending my time organizing what goes and what stays in my closet. Le sigh. Ladies and Gents, now THAT'S the beauty of a long winter break.

This is just too hillarious to NOT SHARE!

Courtesy of IRacoon

Ever experience a flu so bad that you feel like you're having a bad throat AND a bad nose at the same time? I Had. Am. Is. experiencing it right.this.moment. Not that I'm complaining, it's nice to feel weak once a while - it prevents -yours truly- from munching the entire fridge away. Ha. I kid you not, there's just way too much sweet crap in that damn fridge. Why dark chocolates, why?!

Since this is my first time updating my blog after what seems like forever. I'm feeling a lost on what I should be saying and what I shouldn't. I mean, it's after the season to be joying - shouldn't I be writing something about that to gain more blog stumblers? Nah. I like it this way.

xoxo

TipsyDarlene

Happy Christmas everyone.

Happy New Year world.

I love ya'll in the butt!!

Et!

2010-12-06T15:26:00.001+08:00

Ever finished reading a book only to realize "what a minute, what's the name of the main character in the book. again?". This is when you rush back to your shelve, to flip through the pages of the book - only to discover that "oh, it wasn't mentioned". But how is that even possible? How can you write or read about the story without knowing who's the main act in it? Le sigh.

This is what happened to me a couple of minutes ago. I just completed reading a book for what seemed like forever (yea, it was boring in the beginning you seee!), and when I finally did. I don't remember coming across the name of the main act. True story.

So anyhoots, it doesn't matter - what matters is how the book had an effect on you. So I got carried away with it. It's normal. A good book always catches your attention at the beginning. So this book didn't exactly caught my attention in the beginning. The beginning of Bergdoft Blondes - sounded more like a bimbo novel to me. I think I only enjoyed bits about the fashion/love drama these blondes are facings. Urgh. It's like reading "I'm a shopaholic" all over again. *rolls eyes* Well, least I completed it, no?

Speaking of completions, I have yet to finish EAT PRAY LOVE by Elizabeth Gilbert, I'm sorry but it's just not catchy. I'm really not into draggy story line - and when I say draggy. This is merely close to mild, it's beyond! In the book, India's my destination. Still not catchy. Let's see, I text while I read, that's something I don't do when I read. Do the math.

I'm on my 3 months winter break/long holiday. I'm not sure I have a plan on how I want to spend it, cept' for bumming around - whatever comes my way, comes. So far, it's only been surviving my little cash left for this month, readings, watching TV, and I have yet to get myself to clean my room/closet. Le sigh. I'm no where near motivated. Yet. I'm thinking of applying for a job by January, since I've got tons of new year and Christmas plans for this month. Ah, the joy for being carefree....and broke. Meh.

So I woke up this morning, with a very strong urge to revive my Facebook account. Yes, the one I've been staying away since. But as my morning blues wears off, I'm not so much persuaded to do so anymore. Now that I'm online, I have the urge to do so. again. Why? BECAUSE EFFING TUMBLR IS DOWN! =(

I don't normally do print screens but I'm THAT annoyed. Oh well, guess this is a sign for me to start working on something more productive - like my portfolio. That's sometime I've been avoiding for the past weeks. Why did I even volunteer for that?! Urgh.

Guess this is goodbye, I promise to update y'all as frequent as I can. Now that's holidays are in the way, the idea of being hunched over the computer - is not pleasant nor tempting.

Till then!

xoxo bitches!

TipsyDarlene

It's back.

2010-11-21T16:14:00.000+08:00

I can't help but notice how we only get along when you do not bring up that topic. I hate how I'm always trying to hard to get you to notice me but I'm never the shinning star in your eyes. It has always been the other someone. Just letting it all go will only cure this tiny bit of my heart.

And this time, I've had enough, I needed you to notice me. Why wouldn't you notice me? Would a little appraisals kill? Would a little TLC murder your oh so solid soul? What is it that causes you to dislike me? Sometimes I feel as though, being the black sheep helps me recover from my state of depression and lack of comfort in my life. I'm always having a mask on, simply to please you - unfortunately, I was never able to get you to notice me.

Had it been so hard for us to have a proper conversation without any cut-outs on that topic? Will it kill for you to ask about what I want? Just for once in my life, can I have a say? Why wouldn't you listen to what I had to say about it? Why wouldn't you understand the problems that I'm going through in life? Why are you always so eager to be the dominant one? Would it kill you emotionally to go against your decisions, just this once?

I hate how you never notice
I hate how you never care
I hate how we always never see eye to eye
I hate how you're always letting me down
I hate how I'm never your shinning star
....no matter how hard I try
I do not wish things to be different
I just wish you would understand the state that I'm in.

The Romantic Death

2010-11-20T21:16:00.002+08:00

Somehow, just the way a story strikes you,

it changes everything.

The way you think

breathe and feel.

Sometimes the change is small,

unnoticeable, deadly,

but a change nonetheless.

Such story is a Classic;

not a classic with dead authors,

old English, or confusing themes.

A classical simplicity,

not one of antiquity,

but of today. It haunts you,

you read it twice
you read it thrice,

but it's too late: the world, or how you view it,

different, new, how unreal.

Somehow, a story becomes a part of you,

just the way it strikes. And you'll never forget

I’m little miss chick flick potato chips

Bad TV and crisps with dips.

Cider out a china cup

But when you ask

Nothings up.

I’m the girl out spending what she can’t afford.

Looking solemn, feeling sore.

Living in a checkered world
Of rock music and indie pop heads.

I’m staying up and sleeping in.

Filled with sugar to the brim.

Curtains calls all through the sunshine sky.

But I wont tell you

I wont say.

Fallen Places

2010-11-16T02:36:00.000+08:00

Can I write you a song
Will you sing them to me
Can I kiss you goodnight
So you'll remember me by
Can I wake up at night
Just to watch your eyes twinkle with sweet dreams
Can we sit by the park bench
So we can talk about everything under the sun
Can you just stay still
Then I can take a mental picture of you
Can I possibly turn back time
Can I stop the page from flipping
Can I reach for the clouds up in the sky
Can I choose to survive this alone
Can everyone not assume that I'm heartbroken
Can I just write about my inspirations
Can I, Can I?
So you can enjoy every word written...
Just for you, for you, for you...

Late Night Sex

2010-11-13T14:03:00.001+08:00

If things were once different,

Would you do the same to change it? 

If things were easier, 

Would you walk the mile with me too? 

If she had not come along, 

Would you sleep with me instead? 

If the sky had not turn grey, 

Would you carry them for me? 

A dream that was once sparkly, 

The window that was once bright, 

A door that was always closed behind us, 

The room that was once filled with laughter, 

I'm pretty sure I could stay alive.

I'm nearing the end of my semester, also nearing the end to my study life - not unless I choose to continue (?) A good talk with Daddy last night had put my mind and goals into place. Every parent wants the best for their kids, no?

Anyhoots, cut back to my updates. I refuse to discuss my family and other private crap here, nor do I want to get all sobby sob sob here. So university life has got me thinking bout' my future, as to whether or not I'm doing the right thing majoring in 'this'? Somehow, throughout college and uni, I discovered something about myself. Something I didn't think I'd enjoy doing. And that's to write.

*bites lips* But, I have to be bloody good to make it big, no? And, I think I'm good but not brilliant. I don't know why I'm saying this here. It seems pointless writing it here when knowing that no one can help me solve my dilemma but myself(?) Le sigh.

Moving on, anyone heard of Taylor Momsen? No, silly. It isn't Taylor Swift, the bimbo. I'm talking about Taylor Momsen, the fashion icon, the only girl who could pull off dark make up, the girl from The Pretty Reckless? Anyone? Whateves, do check her and her music out. EFFING DOPE!

And here's good news, I've been off Facebook for nearly a decade now. Not really, only been a couple of months and surprisingly, I do not miss it. Not like how I used to anyways. For some reason, I'm getting pretty racist and fashist (for people who dresses badly) too. *shrugs* Pretty darn stereotypical. Guess I don't quite conform to the norm. And you know what? I don't give two shits about it. "I'm a free bitch, baby!!" Not that I'm a fan of Gaga's, but that seemed like an appropriate quote to say-it-all, no?

I'm gonna get back to my work now, I'll leave this thinking during my long break. And speaking of long breaks, I'm undecided on whether I should be updating my resume or just simply catching on sleeps instead. sigh. Welcome to my life everyone - oh believe me, my problems are way more than these. I just refuse to open up here.

Till then, read me awesome please!

I Could Not, Simple Because

2010-10-31T22:04:00.005+08:00

One touch, one scent.

The little things that kills every living soul.

One perfect creature molded into a monster.

A perfection that did not last long.

That dream he once hold so dear.

Things should not be that way.

We thought you had that self-control.

She did not expect such reaction from you.

You let them both down.

Something that could be changed.

She asked if I was happy.

The answer was always yes.

She asked if I was okay.

The answer was always yes.
Liar, it was never the truth.
Never crystal clear, visions were often blurred,

You should have fought it.

You should have kept things just the way it is.

You should have controlled it.

We thought you knew better.

[Paul Auster, The Brooklyn Follies]

I fell in love with this book.

Sometimes, when I'm not in the mood to write much - I prefer to conclude everything into a poem. I'm no Shakespeare. I'm no poet, I just like writing. The discovery of something new is somewhat amazing. I have not updated y'all about my drama in the last post.

Here's a scoop. We made our peace. Or should I say, I thought I did. Or I THINK I did. Then why do I still have that feeling of wanting to disagree? I don't know, you're someone really close to me - and to have lose you as a good pal, is not exactly my wish. Therefore, I chose to keep my disagreement to myself because...

Sometimes,

Things are better off that way,

Sometimes,

We do not live to please ourselves,

Sometimes,

This is life.

xoxo

TipsyDarlene

The Downfall

2010-10-27T12:34:00.000+08:00

They dream

We are emotional

She writes

He sings

This is the downfall to reality

So maybe, just maybe

Things will never be the same

Because, just because

Change might be good.

I feel like I'm about to lose you as a close friend. It hasn't been easy for me to have a proper conversation with you - I don't feel like I can tell you everything like how I used to. I miss our hang outs. Maybe it's the different group of friends we've both grew so fond of. Maybe it's everything that revolves around us.

I have to admit, I don't quite fancy the friends you hang out with but, who am I to complain? I'm sure you know me well enough to know that I dislike your current crush. Not that I'm in any place to disagree but...really? Of everyone else. Again, I'm sorry for that - I respect you and the people you mix with.

I just wish things we the same 10 months ago. I hate to sound like a girlfriend to you, when I'm not. I'm just saying, I miss us being close. I miss being able to talk to someone who listens and cracks jokes to make me laugh. I miss having long conversations of nothing and something. Is it the age? Cause' I'm pretty sure that we're of the same age.

Now, readers. Please don't misunderstand. We're just friends. Not getting anywhere near intimate here. I just need to spill this out before anyone gets hurt. Cause' I know I've caused much heartbreaks and depression to myself - over silly little feelings I kept so well inside (well, apparently, not so well eyh?)

Well, that's part of the life I'm going through. I've grown so used to keeping things inside, that it hurts whenever I think of it. That would also be part of the reason why I left facebook. There is just too much memories that I find hard forgetting. So very difficult.

Kanye West - Runaway

FAKE

2010-10-25T23:43:00.003+08:00

You know, sometimes acoustics really annoy me. In what way, you may ask? Try listening to Screaming Infidelities by Dashboard Confessionals. No offense, Dashboard is awesome - it's just THAT particular song, the strumming of the guitar just squeaks in your ears. It's proally the repetition of the same note over and over again. GAH! Don't believe me? Try focusing on something while listening to that. It's a screaming pain to my eardrums.

So anyhoots, how was your day today? Or how would you like your day to begin with? =) Mine was...pretty interesting. I'd spent my day stressing over problems that I only have myself to blame, which is, not very healthy - if you ask me. My advice, plan your day well - that's something I didn't do. Le sigh. All those money and time wasted for nuffin.

Speaking of blames, don't you just hate it when parents blames you (the oldest/youngest) for everything that happens? Even if you've basically done the right thing, only to have the younger/older siblings screwing things up. I've been through that, I can't say I've gotten used to it - I'm just disappointed in myself. Why? Here's why, think twice before asking your siblings for help, screw the saying of "family will always be there for you" crap. It's B.S, trust me, with a sibling as dumb as mine - it's hopeless. They would either forget about your favor or leave you soaking in deep shit![read figure below]

So here's my two cents, trust no one but yourself. Fuck boyfriends/girlfriends - they won't be there for you after you leave them. It's just a matter of time. WAKE UP! Anyhoots, like what Kimora Lee Simmons would say, you want a job done, you gotta do it yourself. After today, I've learnt my lesson to not rely on my sibling for help.

Speaking of doing things myself, I plan to splurge on a good pocket camera. I don't need no DSLR, that 'thing' is bloody heavy to carry it around. My plan? To take snap shots of random things I see in my daily life, this will include everything elseandwhatnots. Well, it's a plan that I would stick to. I've just got to start saving now. HEH.

And oh! For the record, I enjoy updating my blog - now that I'm away from that megasocialnetwork. Though they would always be the temptation to re-activate but I stand firm on my ground. I would stay away from this megasocialnetwork for as long as I can. And till then, I shall be back.

I'm Missing You Like Crazy

2010-10-25T00:23:00.000+08:00

Life, is more than falling in love,

Life, is more than kissing your dream boy,

Life, is more than having butterflies and tummy churms when you're kissed,

Life, is more than that.

It amuses me everytime I see kids getting all upset over a text not received from that special someone - it's just fucked up man. Seriously? That's way too clingy, no? Or she's proally a freshy to relationships. Awhh!! Come to think of it, I dont' remember the last time I went gaga over a guy. And when I say 'gaga', I meant stalking, prank calling-gaga! Yeah, those were the good ol' dumbshit days.

I have no idea what's the purpose of my post tonight, guess I just wanted to state how it badly bores me when a girl/guy goes 'depression' when that certain someone forgets to call/text them. Really? -.- I thought kids these days are totally over that texting crap already? What happened to sneaking out and skipping school for a date days? Why the politeness? We going backwards now? Damn.

Guess we kids were cooler back then. Nawhhh!! *big smile* Yeh well, things were less dangerous back then. Rapist were never loitering around the residence for a bait, back then - rapist were like ice rain. =) Go figure! But I guess, one things' for sho - we were young and carefree, and everything that matters was only him or her by our side. Even if it means flunking a fecking paper, as long as he/she is there, everything's gonna be alrighttt!! (8)

haha! I'm totally not standing on my own ground right now. *shrugs* whatever, I just needed some time off my assessments. Gahh!! It's killing meeehh!! But till then, catcha later doood! *wink*

p.s: I'm too lazy for pictures.

24 hours of Hunger

2010-10-21T00:21:00.002+08:00

I've made up my mind to make a change,
I know I've done this before and I promise you,
This time, it will last a little longer.

I've left Facebook, for good. I realize and knew that Facebook is a major distraction in my social life. I will now be someone without an account. It feels good, somehow - I feel like a burden has been lifted. No more checking your daily mails, daily notifications, daily tagged photos and so forth. I can't exactly make Facebook sound crappy but I do feel crappy having one. Maybe it's the age. Good goodness, I just made myself sound like I'm experiencing a mid-life crisis.

Seriously, the only accounts I have now, does not require that much of attention as compared to Facebook. Facebook is like a pet you never had. It requires much feeding and cleaning up. So being a neat freak I am, by, disconnecting myself, I will not only save time cleaning up and shit - I would also spend more time OFF SCREEN! Stalking on Facebook, made me feel sucky about myself. Adding random friends on Facebook, made me look like a friendless dork. Chatting with friends on walls not only makes you look 'happening' but lifeless. Idk if it's just me or is Facebook getting less interesting?

To those on my Facebook list, I'm sure y'all have my twitter account or email. I'm not sorry for any inconvenience, for joining Facebook was initially MY choice, hence canceling it. I don't hate any of you, I just hate myself for wasting precious time on it. If you think otherwise, do tell me the good things about being on Facebook BESIDES networking/socializing.

And yes, tagging people on your new collections of clothes/contact lenses and what nots are considered NETWORKING. You stupid or what? =)

I have been wasting my time,
Until you see me in your dreams,
Then will you know the truth about me,
The silence will one day be noise,
Let's get this over tonight, tonight,
For me.

Funny First Way

2010-10-08T10:28:00.007+08:00

Have you even been so addicted of obsessed with something, till the extend, you could not go anywhere without it. Not even if it's just a trip out for dinner. Or even having to leave your house with a certain something to feel complete? I do.

I have a major obsession for fancy lip smackers and lip gloss. Not
that I wear them often, just the thought of having to moist my lips when I need to - is there, every time. And if I were to leave my house without them, I'd feel incomplete, you can say that it'll proally ruin my whole day if that happens.

Another item would by body lotion and hand sanitizer. I need to sanitize and THEN moist my hand with lotion. And my latest addiction, a (pocket size) lip balm by Vaseline and a Crabtree and Evelyn Rosewater hand lotion, both in a handy size. Coolios!

Good gosh, this is a total OCD move! Oh well, it's fun having everything in one bag, no? Bags are getting bigger by the season, daily needs are slowly shrinking in size, hence the convenience. I prefer to stay clean everytime I'm out. Speaking of cleanliness, I'd also carry a pack of wet tissues with me - ESPECIALLY when I have a whole day in school. I hate having to feel sticky and icky by lunch time, I can't be smelling of sweat and grossed out body mist. And because I wear flip flops sometimes (most of the time, really) I get grossed out feet by the end of the day - it needs cleaning. WET WIPES please! *wink*

Y'all so gonna think I'm a weirdo but, I've gotten so used to it - till the extend I would not feel good for the rest of the day if one of these items are forgotten. SHIT! So there you go, the story of my OCD-ness. I'm proud of it, why? I prefer to stay clean and to smell good. And yes, I wouldn't mind one bit about getting any of these as gifts. I can go on and on about what else I can't leave home without but that would proally lead to more weird reaction from y'all!

Till then, see ya later alligators!

Handjobs for Tonight

2010-10-04T21:54:00.000+08:00

This would be a quick one, I'm in no mood to start my assignment just yet. I know, I should be more discipline with it comes to...serious stuff! tsk*

So I got indirect naggings from mummy. She don't exactly fancy me going out so often. Gah! Fine, I'm going to try grounding myself for another month. Just one damn month and I'm back on track with Mr. Holiday. Oh how I miss you baby boo!! *air-draws a heart*

I'm so lame sometimes, I could die. So anyways, I've got plenty of photos to be uploaded into DA - my page has not been updated since forevah! What happened to consistency bitch!? I've got assignments piling by the day, how I wish I would work on it with my MIND instead of the computer - like whenever I'm out having dinner, I could just type out my work with my mind and it should be ready to be submitted by the time I'm done. Ha. Innit awesome!? Why? Cause' my computer takes ages to load, GOOD GOSH!

Yeah, my computer should be on my to-do list - #19274759320 *sigh*
"so much to do, so little time" - this used to be the title of my favourite mk and ashley olsen drama series. Yes, I was a bimbo kid! And I'm proud of it, otherwise - the tomboy me would've turned out to be a MAN by now. Awh meeehn...

Anyhoots, getting back to my work now. It's bout' time I re-organize my to-do list (refer to pic above). I've got chores like, clearing my overflowing closet for new spaces, to saving up cash to go vintage shopping, to waking up early/to look good for classes, and acing to get a high-flying job -I can forget about boys by now. Hmm. So till then, kiss me misses yeh!?

xoxo bitches!

TipsyDarlene

P.s: I Love You

2010-10-03T20:04:00.001+08:00

Now before I start telling my dear ol' tales, let me first apologize for my last post. I was not in the right state of mine. tsk* Sorry, I haven't completely gotten over my depression state. Still working on it, it's getting better.

I have a problem, well not really - I can't be bothered about it, really but this 'thing' has been buggin' me and I really need to get it off my shoulder. I'm just going to tell it to YOUR face kay? You know who you are, I hope that you understand kay?

Dear you,
I'm sorry that I haven't been answering or hanging out with you lately. Well, let me just be honest - I'm not sorry. I did it on purpose. Why? Don't get me wrong, I like hanging out with you but ever since you got together with that person, I just can't see myself hanging out or even chatting up with you anymore. It's not that I don't like that person as a human being, I just don't like how YOU carry yourself when you're around that person.

1) You talk about that person EVERY DAMN TIME we talk.
2) Even when you call, I thought of updating you about my life but....you just wouldn't stop blabbing about that person.
3) When we hang out? Sure that person dont' ALWAYS comes along (Thank God!) but you won't stop, you just HAD to text/making cutesy short calls to that person.
4) I hate how when you don't even see that person for a day, you'd get all upset and pathetic

DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW IRRITATING THAT IS?
Here I am, trying to be a good and supportive friend but you're just making me dislike your relationship with that person even more. It's like it's only the two of you in this BIG WIDE WORLD!

Yes, I understand you're madly in love, I understand that the person's being really loyal, I understand that when that person does silly things that makes you smile but, seriously - QUIT ACTING SO LOVE SICK.

I'm sorry for the mean words. Maybe I'm just not the type who clings on to the 'special' someone so much. It just makes me look pathetic and a sadist. Like it's a matter of life and death. Please, I've got better plans than to cling on to someone like that. This, is BEYOND clingy.

And it annoys me. I hope you'll understand. I never meant to hurt you - I didn't know how to put this in a better way. You know who you are. I would still want to hang out with you but then again, I prefer us to maintain the silence. I think it's the best for the both of us. For now...

I'm so very sorry to have upset you. Take care, babycakes!!

xoxo

TipsyDarlene

Loser's Mile

2010-09-27T23:19:00.002+08:00

So I've officially grown a year older. Nothing special bout that, growing a year older feels just the same like any other days. What I can't understand is why people like making such a big fuse about their birthday? I mean, I get it - it's your birthday, need not throw a party inviting people whom you want to impress. You're not getting any popular by that, plus! You're wasting your money, my as well save them cash for your own shopping spree!! Go pamper yourself, whoever said that it's a must to celebrate.

I have to admit, I didn't want a celebration. Yeh, a surprise would be nice but I made it clear that I refuse to submit to the norm. I refuse to make it such a big deal turning older, oh please - I'm going to turn old for the next gazillion years! hah.

Moving on, I suddenly have the urge to blog. Mainly because I have some news to share. Well, it's just my point of view, my friend even commented that I seem to have issues and opinions on everything. I'm taking that as a compliment! meh. So my news is, just because we used to be close friends back in school, does not mean I want to be your close friend now. And please, stop it with them yearly class gathering crap. If that person really wants to meet up with you, I'm pretty sure they'd take the initiative to contact you. Unforch, you're the only one doing it - isn't the already obvious? Phfft!

[...why thankfeckingyou!]

You can hate me for being so mean but I'm just giving my two-cents worth! Ok fine, maybe having a gathering isn't so bad but is it that important for everyone to attend? Y'all like making it such a big deal when one of us do not attend, girl please - we're way cooler than you. Least we know how to have fun. And our idea of fun, isn't just going out for dinner and taking pictures just so that you can show them off on Facebook. Oh believe me, their faces usually says "hey look at me, I'm finally the prettiest/sexiest/coolest among my ex-classmates". Seriously.

And FYI, we have a life off facebook. And we do not dwell on the same ol' crush you had since you were, what? 17? *rolls eyes* Or at least we do not brag about our boyfriend/girlfriend like y'all are friggin' married! Oh I've seen these, first they're "in a relationship", then you start seeing mushy updates about that someone, AND the next thing you know "they're married" when they are actually not. eee! Why?

Really. How clingy can you get? The guy/girl you're dating must be a goof to be proud of you. Erm, a little bit of self-pride please? You're making yourself look like an idiot, no really, it must be too damn easy for him/her to get into your pants! Just because you THINK that you have self-pride, that does not mean that you do. Remember, how your carry yourself, is how others see you!

Oh well, that's just what I think. I simply cannot stand people like you! you! and you! I dare you to give me a virtual bitch slap, cause' I know you want to. How do I know? hah. Cause' your mommy says so!

xoxo

TipsyDarlene

Holla!

2010-09-20T09:57:00.000+08:00

IT'S MY BIRTHDAY! AND EVERYBODY LOVES ME! EVERYBODY WANTS TO BE MY FRIEND (well, not really - haha)!

Because I'm no longer a child, I refuse to make it such a big deal exploding into my new age, in other words, I refuse to submit to thew norm of having to celebrate birthdays in a club/party. Instead, I chose to have dinner with my closest friends. Thanks for the awesome night guys!

And because it's my birthday, I made it a point to blog. Yeah, no doubt it's my birthday but I have responsibilities too. Like, updating my blog and preparing for my first day of school after a two weeks breather. Geez. What a kill joy, no? :(

This will be a short post as I have got other 'responsibilities' to get back too. Phfft! Imma make this post a dedication post, THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR THE WISHES/GIFTS ON FACEBOOK, TWITTER AND EVERYWHERE ELSE! tsk* Time has changed, now everyone's communicating everywhere.

And oh! EVEN IF WE HAVEN'T SPOKE FOR AGES, THANKS FOR REMEMBERING (even if facebook played a part in reminding you!) - LEAST Y'ALL TOOK THE EFFORT TO WRITE ME! Fhankiuuuuu!!

Everyday is the same,

The clock strikes 12 every night,

When I wake up every morning,

You're still perfect next to me,

Now, tomorrow, yesterday,

We will always be one,

Thanks for the time spent with you and more to come,

Because no matter how far we are,

No matter the arguments,

I'm still so stoked to be yours.

*Wee, I'm back! I wrote dinner!

Till then, see you later alligators!

xxx

TipsyDarlene

Kiss Me Famous

2010-09-13T13:33:00.000+08:00

Holla!! It's my birthday this weekend! Not that I have anything up my sleeves or anything, I just have this urge to give you guys some really good birthday gift ideas.

So after watching a video of my fav you-tuber unwrapping her birthday gift on cam. Yeah I know how lame that sounded but I'm not about to tell you about the video! I want to tell you guys about the type of gifts she received.

She got books, cook books anything else non-purchasable. Like hand made cards, I'm not talking about the ones you get from Hallmarks with lame writings on them. Sorry, Hallmark. You guys are getting pretty overrated. Boo you!

Why can't someone be more creative and to make awesome wish cards instead of getting ready-mades from Hallmark or anywhere else for that matters? The reason why I like receiving gifts, I like the surprise, I like the anxiety that you get when you're not able to discover what's hidden behind those pretty confettis and colourful wrappers.

Because we are all lazy people (for those denying it, you're shit! I'm pretty sure you're lazy in your own ways!) and so we get ready-made cards. So when you've ran out of ideas on what you should get your friends. DONT JUST WALK INTO HALLMARK AND BUY A BIRTHDAY CARD! Instead, get them ribbons, confettis, and what nots, Make your own birthday card, it 1) makes things more interesting, let that kid be happy for a reason! 2) You get to be creative. Who cares if wordings were written badly? 3) You'd be surprised with the result.

Here's an example of a card I made for my good friend whom had left for London Tawn to further her studies. =(

I topped it together with a CD, containing videos of our outings/sing-alongs in the car. It may not sound as interesting to you but trust me. It's shows how much you cherish your friend and also to remind him/her not to forget her/his friends back home.

Another thing I liked about what that you-tuber received were the amount of things you can find in that box of present. I mean, having tons of random stuff chucked into a box. It don't necessarily have to be stuff you bought, no! It's the thought that counts, remember? Dump in movie tickets you both went for, a penny you found while you two where on a shopping trip, a box of condoms cause' you think it's about time for he/she to get some lovin', a pair of sexy bikini's/bottoms because it's about time she start showing off some curves, a second hand classical book (if they person enjoys reading), a Polaroid picture of something that brings back sweet memories - the idea of this gift box is anything out of everything - so long it fits into the box, you're good to go!

To make things more surprising, you can literally deliver it to that person via snail mail. It's nothing more exciting that receiving a parcel/letter via snail mail. Hey! We diggin' old school sometimes!

I think I've said enough, I have tons more to share but it's about time for your guys to get creative and quit supporting those birthday cards/gift shops! Not being bias, I just think it's a really lame thing to do, to get ready-made gifts from a shop. I could just go get it myself! Honey, just give me cash instead yeh?

Till then! love love babies!

xoxo

TipsyDarlene

750 750 750 750

2010-09-07T12:43:00.001+08:00

Don't you just hate it when your idea turns out to be a piece of crap that brings no good? I know how that feels. I've been spending my last 2 hours working on a piece and heck no is it going anywhere.

Well, I did manage to cock up some shizz yet I still don't feel like it was good enough. *sigh
Dilemma dilemma are balls. I have no idea what I'm doing here, guess I just feel like spilling the beans of my dilemmas. In which, I haven't really told the whole story. Not clearly at least.

WHAT THE FUCK AM I BLABBING ABOUT!? -.-

I hate it when I'm having a writer's block. I need inspiration. I'm working my brains off here, gimme a lil' credit please! Was it just me or is Facebook getting pretty boring now. Honestly, I'm getting sick of social sites. As corny as this is going to sound, I'm only on Facebook because it's sortakinda the easiest way to keep track of what my friends/frenemies are up to. In other words. I CAN STALK THEM YO! Well! Apart from stalking/writing on walls/sending spam messages I can't think of anything else better to do on it.

Oh! Speaking of stalking and spamming, ever had friends who sends you thread messages on Facebook urging you to vote for them on some stupid modelling/photo contest they're up and running for? I have. And it's getting pretty annoying. I'm not saying that it's a bad thing to join but, if you want someone to vote for you. Please make sure that you're good. Don't just send in some crappy photo of yourself sitting on a pole, thinking that it's sexy showing off those flabs of yours in them shorty shorts and expecting US to vote! Oh sweeties, just because we're friends - that don't mean I'll vote for you. I play it fair, and dear friends - do shove this up your stinkin' ass if your dislike what I'm saying! You're just being naive and stupid. S'all!

Urgh. Anger. I haven't had one of those in a long time. Well, I'm off. That's it for this post. Sorry for the bad organizing of my opinions. I kinda feel that it's pretty scattered, like, I talk about everything everywhere. hah.

p.s: The numbers are the only thing running in my mind. DOPE!

xoxo

TipsyDarlene

Sex Me Up Baby!

2010-08-30T01:25:00.004+08:00

Ever wondered how people can think so highly of themselves till the forget who they really are? I've seen those kind of people, had proally been one of them too. Somewhere in my past life, I did.

I'm sure we had all gone through that phase. The phase where we think we know it all until someone sends you crumbling down. I have to admit, I used to be a smart-alec, until someone had actually challenged me and I had failed. Badly. I still think I'm smart. Just don't think I'm THAT smart. Well, I still think I'm way more street smart than some people I know.

*frowns* What was my point again? Did any of you understand me? -.- Gracious! Anyhoots! I was strolling down the night market with my family earlier and I noticed something. That the night market has been turned into a dating spot for young couples. And when I say young couples, I meant school kids. Why? I've been through that phase and trust me hunny - I don't get why they're always suggesting the night market! That's one sticky, gooey, hot, sweat smelling people all around you and gross place to walk, let alone date! Urgh.

You guys may not agree with me but I, stand firm on my point of view. I just think that there should be a better place to go rather than the night market. Why not the morning market? Or, the mall? It's air-conditioned and you need not spend more than 2 bucks on a bus ride home/there. Plus, you have an option to watch a movie, to have meals at cheap fast food restaurants! I'm sure you guys don't go out every night - since most of them are dating guys/girls behind their parents back. It would suspicious to go out every night/day, no?

I'm talking as though I know a lot. I do. Like I said, been through, done that. And this is why I prefer dating guys with cars, no matter how good looking or charming you could be - no car, no talk. Well, it also depends on the TYPE of car. Now, scratch that! We're talking bout them, why did I start blabbing bout meself!? -.-

So here's an update and something you guys could talk over hang out/shisha sessions at your favorite hang out spot. I just thought I'd state my opinion. A blog post would be too lame to have only updates bout' myself and that stuff I bought. Urgh. Who would read that shit?!

photo credit: me!

This is me. Signing off. Till then!

xoxo

TipsyDarlene

The Arrow in Your Neck

2010-08-24T01:00:00.000+08:00

Maybe things will be different

Maybe I will someday see

I will someday see the pain that I've been put through

The tombstone of my love lies broken

Words can't describe my feelings

They can't, they can't,

It's set free, free from the chains

So fly away, fly away,

Until you see neverland,

The land of faraway childhood,

Childhood of my dreams,

Look up the trees,

Tell me what do you see?

She's watching you silently through the night,

Jealousy provokes each time you put your hands on hers,

This is a death of beauty,

Lovers are never true to one another,

It's just another painted picture of perfection and happiness,

Only another guide to survive in this world.

This isn't love, it's death.

Not mine, but yours.

May you live in depression and loathe.

May you also,

Rest in Peace in the world of happiness.

Love Me or Leave Fitch!

2010-08-22T17:10:00.001+08:00

I'm a fail. You see why I never like checking out tutorial channels on the tube? Because the results are always, and I mean always disappointing. *sigh* I've been leaving my blog alone for quite sometime now. So what do you think? Lovin' the new layout? Kinda shows that I love colours a whole lot eh? Phfft! You'd be an oblivious ol' fart to not notice that. Douche!
My earphones are giving way. I can finally get the one I always wanted, and it happened to be on sale! Thank you annual sale!! Thank you so much! Here's the bad news, I have yet to purchase it. Boo! Why? Because the mall is not really a mall where you can spend hours in. Yeah, they have stores that a girl like me will never me interested in. Since when do I ever shop for "feng shui" water balls? Urgh. 1) I don't believe in feng shui and everything else superstitious. 2) I think the idea of having a "mini waterfall" in your living quarters just makes you look really old. Like really. These people remind me of my mum's aunt. (my grand-aunt!) haha!

I have no idea why did I even bother sharing that to you guys. It totally makes my blog boring by the minute, no? Ish.

So I was reading this post from my friend's blog about girls who clubs are sluts. What!? Hold on there, even tho' I do not club - but I very well know that they are NOT sluts. Okay, so what if they (we, girls) happen to dress a lil less than appropriate? Can't you blame them (us, girls)? They're (we, girls) are just there to have a good time. Who dresses like a sacred nun, wait - nuns dont' club! Silly me! That's not my point, my point is - that person who came up with such statement must've been damn right ugly or she/he proally hasn't got them friends to go places with. I feel sorry for you. No really. No friends and all, must've been hard on your childhood. *shakes head* There, there, we still hate you nevetheless. Ugly ol' fart!

Anyways, I'm off. I have places to go - unlike the pathetic ol' friendless fart! *tsk. I'm sorry as feck for boring you with such short post or bursting your bubble for signing off so soon. But, I'll be back. You can always leave a comment and I'll write back. I know you want to. JUST, HIT THAT BUTTON BABEYY! ;)

Hello blue sky,

Goodbye cloudy day,

I miss making love to you,

I would love to hook up once more,

You got my digits,

Dial me.

xoxo

TipsyDarlene

Stolen

2010-08-16T00:55:00.000+08:00

It's funny how when your mind tells you something but your action does otherwise. This. Is a total laugh out loud (at yourself) situation, I hate it when that happens.

You see, I'm having a hard time writing a lead for my essay assessment. Writing has always been my escape (and reading too), but whenever I'm all geared up to write an essay, a soon-to-be-graded one - I crash and burn! I just can't do it. I have this mindset that "I have to impress my tutor" hence the lousy piece of work. *bangs head on the wall*

The reason I'm here? Not just for an update, I need some inspiration - I'm suffering from a writer's block. Let's just hope this does not go on forever. I have a paper due by the next week. I can not screw this up. I can't. I won't.

Me thinks I'll spend sometime at the library tomorrow. I need some alone time, with just me, the books and my mp3! =) I need the tv. I haven't seen a decent movie for nearly a week now. Urgh. That's like my only source of entertainment. Instead of being high on drugs, I need my daily/weekly doze of movies. Well, least A movie a week is enough for me to last.

I'm online with my bestie now. She asked me some pretty darn good questions, which had got me thinking out of the box! Thanks a bunch, love! You know who you are!

Till then! I'll be back for more updates! Hopefully soon, I hate the idea of leaving my blog all dusty and lousy. Yes, my blog holds sentimental values, it'd be a bummer to leave it all dusty and old. And oh! I promise to change the layout soon! Real soon.

xoxo

TipsyDarlene

Girl All The Good Guys Hate!

2010-08-11T07:47:00.001+08:00

Just to kill time, I've decided to share my thoughts with you. And when I say you, I mean YOU - my dear ol' readers. Well, I've got approximately 20 minutes left. Instead of sitting my ass down in the ever-so uncomfy chair in an empty class - I'd much prefer to hide myself in the computer lab. *snort* I'm so not cool. I KNOW RIGHT?!

So I'm in a dilemma. And I've always faced this everytime my hair gets out of the way. At least it's out of my face, which is good, but... I want something extreme, something with a WOW factor. haha! I thought of shaving my head but, people might see me as a rebel - which I'm *cough* not. =) For those who knows me, SHUT UP! Y'all not in a position to speak your heart out! hah.

Anyhoots, after much consideration - I've decided to leave them locks at it is. Not because I don't like the change but because I'd ran out of ideas on how my hairs should be. Urgh. No more 'lilo' bangs please. I do not want to be labeled the 'china doll' or a cute-ass chick (I meant the hair!). Phfft! I want to be remembered for my hair. HAHAH! Y'know what I'm saying. Ngehehe!

AND INSTEAD! I might just go for an extreme colour makeover! What? It's legit, no? =) I should proally wear my lucky bra or panties when I do so. Just to be safe. Hey!! Shit happens okay, I might just end up looking like a rainbowed horse?! (I have no idea where that came from!) Fine. I know I've mentioned this time after time that I. Do. Not. Bimbo. Blog. and look what I'm doing now. Bleh. Sorreh, I just get carried away sometimes.

Okay, I'm off! Ciao!

p.s: Cool tittle eh!? *cough*ness.

xoxo

TipsyDarlene

It's my Escape

2010-08-09T22:35:00.001+08:00

I remember having a favorite song when I was a kid. It was a mandarin song about a fish, and I remember how I enjoy playing that song on my pianika! Well, 1) it was one of the easiest song to play and 2) cause' I know the lyrics to the song (Although it sucked pretty bad when you can't play the pianika and sing at the same time!) Teehee!

Besides music class, I very much enjoyed art classes and English lessons. Although my parents weren't very supportive about me excelling in art, nevertheless, I still enjoyed the classes - yeh! I tried doing really bad in every assignment given, but unfortunately I still never fail to obtain 'A's or 'stars'! Who's yer mummy nao!? HAHA. And moving to English lessons, because I was sent to a Chinese school, I was forced to speak and write in Chinese. Not that I was complaining but coming from an English educated family - I simply didn't enjoy myself. So, English (and art classes) was (were) like the only class(s) I looked forward to every week!

But don't get me wrong, I'm very grateful for the Chinese education that I'd been given. I'm glad that I could speak in that lingo instead of being a banana inside out! heh. (although I barely use it on a daily basis, ever since I left school).

So back to english lessons, the one thing I enjoy doing was writing essays! We were always told to write about well, anything. And, kids being kids - we had a very limited scope of "what should we write in free-topic essays". It was either to write about your pet, yourself or your life as an objects/animal/insect. WTF face please! -.- tsk* Oh well, I did manage to ace in exams - so who cares! Meh.

Anyways, I've decided to write a lil' about my schooling life since it was the only thing I could come up with to write about tonight. Like it, hate it? I. Don't. Care. oops!? =)

So I have a little news for you, earlier today - I'd happened to be in the same lift with 4 ubber pretty/hot looking guys, it's too bad I was looking like shit to even have a third glance at them. Damn it! Why is it that I'm always bumping into hotties when I'm looking like crap. Yeah! Try picturing baggy tee and jeans. Bejezus! I gotta stop being a bumm whenever I'm leaving home!

There's the story of my life. I hope I manage to annoy you with my random and out-of-the-blue updates, well - I was talking/bragging about meself. I'm sure y'all had a couple of "eye-rolling" moments! ha. Till then, I'm off beeetches!

[Sometimes I wish things were plain and simple. Again.]

xoxo

TipsyDarlene

Read Me The Right Way

2010-08-07T18:57:00.001+08:00

I want everything in life

I want to know everything there is to know

I want to be someone everyone will need in life

I want to earn so much that my parents wont' have to worry

I want to write about everything

I want to be an interest to people

So I was filling up this survey about a student's daily routines, and their likings. I came across this question asking when am I most energized/alert in a day. I had three choices, 1) In the mornings, 2) In the afternoons 3) At night. *smile* Guess what I answered? The right answer wins!! yay! -.-

I have a confession, I'm nocturnal. No kidding. I'm always wide awake during the wee hours of the morning. Which is pretty trashy, cause' I have no reason at all to stay awake - at least for the time being. When assignments starts flowing in. Oh, I'm doomed!

I should start using more transitions in my essays/blog posts. A lecturer commented that students these days barely uses transitions in their essay. And in order to do well in my writing class, I should start practicing now, no?

Moving on, earlier this week. I tried being a heroin by helping mummy out in the kitchen. Well, being the smarty-pants that I am, I decided to help out with the red chilli pounding (it's a traditional dish, hence the traditional way of preparing it). Anyways, after a couple of MINUTES, I got lazy and decided to get over and done with it - which in other words means doing everything in a rush), also forgetting that I was dealing with really hot hot chillis! I got sting in the eye, reeeal bad! And of course, various curse words of many languages were formed/yelled. Sorry mummy. Thank goodness, for the bathroom nearby. Stupid stupid chillis!

I have no idea why had I even bother writing about that incident - it's not even interesting. Oh sawd, I'm an idiot. Phfft! What new, yeh? Anyway, forget about my idiocy, lets' move on - remember me saying something about the layout of my blog? And how I plan to change it (but I haven't got the chance to do it)? Remember? Ohh, I'm just saying - Me thinks it's time for a change. I really need to stop being so lazy. Even if it's only refurnishing a BLOG!

*slams head on the keyboard* hdhfr'huhjh ;jmkjnhkljdfklj;ituom,xnvndbldghkt.g GAHH!

Well, it's nearly dinner time back here. Till then, I'll be back for more updates.Oh did I mention, that I'm blogging AND tumblin' at the same time? Yes, tumbling's been pretty inspiring. I've finally made plans for my future. I've finally have goals in life. Well, solid and realistic ones! ha.

Till then. Thanks for reading dearies!

[Langkawi Island, Cable Car Town - souvenir stop]

xoxo

TipsyDarlene

Is this...?

2010-08-02T22:38:00.001+08:00

I've finally found the right one! That's it! NOW, I can write. Like I said, I had a feeling I'd be doing an update here, I'm finally inspired and hyped to write.

Today's been a lazy day for me, well depressing if you were to dig deeper for the real truth. The gloominess of schooling week is just about to begin. Not that I'm complaining, somehow the fear of going through another few months of torture and sleepless nights worries me. =( And to add on to that, my friends are leaving the country, now, I'm a very people person, I remember my close friend commenting that she hasn't seen me hanging out at the cafes in campus alone. So yes, I never eat alone, I never hang out alone - I mean, WHERE'S THE FUN IN THAT?! No? But thank you bestie for stating the fact.

So there are alot of gigs and shows happening this week. Sadly, I'll be missing out on ALL OF THEM. Why? I have friggin' classes and grades to deal with for this few months. So please bear with my MIA-ness for the next few months. I'd proally be online most of the time, only I won't have the mood to blog, chat or stalk. WHEE! Joy! I. can't. wait. -.- You'd be a fool to believe my words.

I have a vision. My vision is to be a well-known writer. I have a plan. I plan to make it big in the media industry (no, I ain't talking about no singing or acting - please, I can't sing/act to save my life!) I have a wish. And that's to manage my time wisely. YEEEES, I know I've mentioned about my time-managements in my recent posts but after looking at my not-up-to-my-expectations grades - I've decided, it's time for a change. I've got to really focus on what's important and forget about boys, loves and partying.

Urgh. I just hate it when I talk serious. It's just not me. I'm known for being nonsensical and grumpy and I prefer to keep it that way. Heh. Well, I'm running out of things to say. I should leave now. I'll be back for more rantings. Hopefully things will work out better this semester. *finger crossed*

Charming lilis blooming

Twinkling stars sparks as we make out

Dark clouds floats by as the rain begins to fall

Sad song plays as tears stream down your cheeks

Thank you for the once upon a time

I will remember you

But it's gonna be hard for me to love you again.

[Langkawi Island 2010,
vintage VW used as a signboard to a beach cafe]

xoxo

TipsyDarlene

HEY HO!

2010-08-02T00:30:00.003+08:00

Since I can't access my regular sites, I my as well spent a few minutes updating this dusty blog. To be honest, I haven't been inspired to blog. Not that I lost my touch in writing, I just got lazy.

So my holidays are finally coming to an end. *sigh* So, goodbye late mornings and lazy nights - and hello early mornings and sleepless nights. BOO! And while I'm at it, I have a very strong feeling I won't be enjoying my Uni life. Honestly, I've gotten sick and tired of my study life - or maybe I'm just not having enough of the holidays. *sigh*

So what have you been doing throughout the week? Me? Let's just say, my home was basically a hotel for my to sleep in during the night. Nuff' said. And yes, you can proally imagine the soundings I'd gotten from my parents and I've once again, broke the "curfew" house rule. I got home 2 hours later.*shrugs* hey! What's life without a little drama, no? :) Well, it was pretty scary to creep up the stairs without making a single sound and to tip-toe into my room without making screechy sounds. DAMN YOU DOOR!

You know how sometimes when you swear you will not do something ~~again~~ ever again? Yeh, I've been there, done that and somehow - I'm always so eager to break my promise. WABBIT! Not that I'm a rebel or anything, it's just a habit. C'mon, admit it - when your parents forbid you to do something or when you're not legal to do something, the temptation is just THERE!
Just there...waiting for you to break out from your comfort zone. Geez!

So moving on, I have this thing against fashionable girls who thinks they are all that. Yes YOU! I don't get why people like you think you're all pretty and glam just because you own many pairs of shoes and funny "lady Gaga" stuff. Phfft! Oh please, you have no idea how people despise you. People like ME, that is. I'm two faced, so what? I'm just one of those girls who'd pretend to help you out just so that I could see you crash and burn. Yeh, I'm that mean.

No, kidding. I'm always the girl next door. The one who knows nothing bout fashion and music. Cause' all I do is stay home reading encyclopedias about the human body and origamis.

...no shit! I'm no girl next door, the only thing "girl next door" about my is my pretty face. ha. stupid.

There! I've finally did my rantings on this post. I like it. Well, I'm off now. I think I'll be back tomorrow, I got so hyped up with typing now. Well, writing a reply to someon and blogging is different. It's somewhat - fun! *bore* oh yeah, because I'm uber long-winded and chatty. Shit.

Oh wait! Before I post this, I would like to apologize to people on my facebook list - I'm sorry for not wishing you Happy Birthday on your birthday (oh duh!) - not that you'd notice my wish being burried below tons of other wishes. So yes. Consider this paragraph dedicated to you. I'm sorry it's not sugar-coated, the more I try to coat it, the more sarcastic it gets! WOOHOO!

Goodnight, good morning and goodbye lovelies! HAPPY AUGUST!

[My summer vacation on Langkawi Island]

TipsyDarlene

xoxo

You No Longer Break Me

2010-07-10T20:45:00.002+08:00

You left and then 1 1/2 years later you came back. Why? Why must you be the one remind me of the good times and the bad times I had with you? Why must you come back?!

We were talking again. I thought the ball was on my side, but I guess I was wrong…

You asked me out. You said we ought to do some catch up after so long. When the day came, I texted you, asking if the plan is still on - I did not get a reply from you. Not even a “sorry I can’t make it”.

So what? You’re planning to stop talking to me again? You did it again. You came, you conquered and you left. Just like that! Only this time, I am not as vulnerable as I was 1 1/2 years ago.

I’m not upset about the whole ditching thing. I’m just disappointed. Disappointed because I thought you would’ve known better to at least have the decency to inform me that you could not make it.
I feel sorry for you, because you had to turn to your ex-girlfriend for comfort. I feel sorry for you because your ex-girlfriend was the only person you could talk when you needed a shoulder. You’re a jerk and you will always be one.

As for me. I’ve moved on. I’ve dated multiple. I’ve had a few flings and you know what?
I DON’T MISS YOU.

xoxo

A Month Ago...

2010-07-05T23:45:00.002+08:00

I suffered from depression. It was so bad that I had isolated myself from my friends and people whom I love so dearly. I was facing a really bad phase in life, I haven’t opened up myself to anyone or even had a decent/proper conversation with anyone for the past few months.

The ever so bubbly me (or so my friends claimed) was no longer there. I’m always angry, always sad, always always expecting every little thing I do to be perfect and when it doesn’t (which is every-time), the cycle starts. I cut all social lifeline I had and was basically a loner for a very long time. Well, for a person who enjoys being around people - it was considered a VERY long time.

I think I’m doing better, although I still have the urge to isolate myself from people. I’m a perfectionist by nature, I want everything to be perfect. Even my friends. *sigh*

Ever The Same

2010-07-05T00:29:00.002+08:00

What's your definition of perfection?
What's your idea of happiness?
Is there happily ever afters afterall?
When will my time come?

Sometimes I wish I could turn back time
Sometime I'm glad I've come this far
I've made it! On my own
I'm glad I've gotten over you
You no longer make me nervous
You no longer give me cold sweat
You no longer make me crave for your touch
You're just...a nobody

No more breakfast in bed
No more taking mental pictures of you
My heart no longer remembers you
I'd gotten used to your absense
I'm...doing well without you.

And oh! By the way...

I've met someone

Someone whom you might know

He treats me well

He loves me tender

He touches me softly

He kisses me right

Most importantly, he makes me happy.

The Silent Heartbeat

2010-06-18T01:05:00.000+08:00

So while waiting for my final assignment questions to be uploaded on the student portal. I shall take my free time to update this dusty ol' blog.

Anyone missed me? Hmm. I guess not. Well, I'm getting closer and closer to the end of my semester. I'm so so glad and yes, my mood has gotten better by the day. I've been a bitch and a emo-kid for the past few months. Blame it on the stress and the people in my class. Nuff' said.

For starters, just so you know - I'm in the mood to write. So please bear with my unnecessary information written here. ha. I can't wait for my summer holidays to begin! I'm in need of sleeps. Like plenty of them.

This may sound crazy

but I think I'm falling in love with you

you make me smile with the simplest things

I'm winning and losing at the same time

I like how you make me feel happily defeated in playful arguments

Everything in between just perfects it

Time can wait because we have everyday to look forward to

I can tell that you're in love with me

And I hope that you can see that in me too

p.s: I love you.

-TipsyD-

There you have it. Inspired to write. I should start learning how to write dinner instead of dessert.
Till then, I'll be off. I'm getting tired - I should proally wake up early the next day to check for the questions.

xoxo

TipsyDarlene

Invisibly Visible

2010-06-14T21:28:00.000+08:00

I....can't decide if I'm feeling the failure in me pouring out slowly like a stream of blood from a wound. I have been a very angry kid for the past few months. Maybe the new uni environment, maybe the people - I simply don't know.

Sometimes, I just want to cry myself to sleep

At times, I feel disappointed with myself

I know I haven't been a good kid

I know you haven't been very proud of me

I'm very sorry for all the hatreds and angers thrown at you

Truth is, the problem lies within me

I can never be satisfied with myself

My sadness had somehow converted themselves into anger

Tears turned violent and sarcasm

I love you so so dearly

I never meant to make you cry

Trust me on this, I promise to change from now.

This, is how I will sum up the emotions running through me. I haven't been picking up calls or replying any text messages, I'm sorry. Maybe someday I will, maybe I would prefer to remain....unseen.

p.s: I would expect no sympathy or any word of wisdom because I'm done with cliche and cheese.

*Be back soon.

A beautiful sadness within

2010-06-09T20:48:00.001+08:00

Maybe it's about time I update my blog, since I chose not to close it down - I my as well make full use of it's purpose, no? I've been away from the social site I was once zomg-I-can't-live-without-it sorta way. But now I've got better things to do and focus on. No hunnays, it' ain't no boy stories this time. I've long got over the fact that I'd proally be flying solo till I actually have an apartment of my own and to throw shit parties. Maybe then, I'd be having random guys for a one nighter, who knows? *wink*

I'M KIDDING!

Since Uni started, I haven't been hanging out much with friend outside campus. Blame it on my bad time management and procrastination - as long as work is never done, I REFUSE to leave home. ha. Plus, it's not like I'm THAT desperate to be part of the social scene. As of now.

I have been a total anti-social freak for quite some time now.
I have been a bitch to people I don't know and know.
I have been really nice to people whom I barely know.
I have been looking like shit for the past few months.

Maybe it's the age, maybe it's the friends I've been with, maybe it's the way I'm living my life now, maybe it's the way I've been thinking, maybe it's the way I want things to be perfect in the end. Just maybe it's not about some guy. For once.

So whoever that was once or still is my victim of bad-mouthing. I'm very sorry for all this. Well, maybe not - you probably deserved it anyways. I've pretty close to the end of the semester now. I. Can't. Wait. I need my summer. Hmm, summer in Malaysia sounds good, no?

So how have y'all been since my missing-in-actionness?! Much apologies yea? I haven't been inspired to write or socialize for a long time now. Can't say I'm having a writer's block tho. I have to admit, nowadays, whenever I have the free time, I would either catch up on sleeps or doing anything but surf the WWW. Seriously though, staring at the screen for hours isn't very healthy.

Uni has really made me realize a whole lot of things. And yes, as cliche as it may sound - I'm actually beginning to take my dear life seriously. I'm not talking emo here, I mean - what's out there, in the world is 10 times the pressure I'm facing in Uni. I'm happy I survived.

I have to make my move nao. I gotta get back to my course assignments and worries for the next week. FINAL WEEK OF UNI YO!

Dear new guy,

You're cute, there is no doubt about that.

You've got the style, you've got the character that I adore but,

I'm sorry. I just don't think we fit. You're not reading me right.

p.s: I don't think I'm ready to love you yet.

xoxo

Tipsy Darlene

Abused Animals in A'Famosa Resort

2010-05-20T22:02:00.001+08:00

This video. Angers me.
I know I've been away from blogspot for quite sometime now but I had to blog about this, I had to voice out. It makes me really really upset just watching this. Don't worry, its nothing scary or gruesome it's only upsetting about the way people mistreat animals. Just because they do not speak, or have two feet like we do - doesn't make you entitled to treat them this way.

Whoever who's reading this, do forward this video and it's up to as to whether or not you're an animal lover, we're talking humidity here! Whoever treats animal this way?!!? And if this video isn't enough to convince you that people like THEM are being cruel towards animals, then you should proally go EAT YOUR OWN SHIT!

Location: A'Famost Resort, Melaka

Y'all should really be ashamed of yourself. I am no one to judge you, but from what I see here - you're definitely a money-minded asshole. You'd proally be mind-fucked if someone were to drugged you that way. Stupid shit.

Please pass this video/post around. This is AN act of animal cruelty of a tiger drugged at A'famost resort, so you can prod him and take pictures.

Themed Spiral

2010-05-03T22:36:00.002+08:00

Hello hello again! If this is your firs time here, welcome! :) I'm gonna make this a quick one. I'm sorta kinda running out of time. Yeh! Assignment crisis. ha. Thanks to the much procrastination throughout my two weeks of hols. tsk* In my past post, I mentioned that I plan to start a fashion/wishlist/anything I adore photo blog. So as planned. I've finally got myself an account on Tumblr. ha. Prove y'all wrong didn't I?! BOOYAH!

If you have an account on tumblr, do link me up. Or, to sound a little more desperate - do FOLLOW me. blah! Sense the urgency in my writings? Nevermind, it's not important. I'm just doing really short and quick brainstormings - to come up with something to write. Yes, I dislike having a super short post. So ha, mind the random lingo and weird spellings on words. I like coming up with funny curse words. My latest one? Cheeseballs. Like it? Hate it? I really don't care. Booyah!

Notice how my post hasn't been coloured these days. Yeh! When laziness takes over, this is what happens. So school was pretty awesome today. We've finally shifted to the new campus. Let me just put it in a really simple manner. I. Share a lovehate thing for my campus. There are pros, and cons. Boo! Will tell you more if I have the time and if I remember to do so. ha. What? I can't say I've got a goldfish memory tho.

Me thinks I'll stop here. My mind has already shifted to the assignment mode. If that even make sense! And one more thing? Is my blog layout getting boring? Me thinks I'll make some changes on the colours and everything else necessary. It looks dull. Already. Oh yes! I almost forgot. So much for promoting my new photo blog when I haven't given you the link! Phfft!

Here it is! http://spiraltwigs.tumblr.com/ (Like the name? I didn't want so many accounts of mine under that SAME nickname: Tipsy Darlene. BORING)

Have a blasting week people! I've got to run, gotta get rid of the Monday blues and work on my bloody assignments now. Love y'all tons. xx

Hot hot boys!

2010-04-29T11:31:00.003+08:00

Stereophonics was teh bomb. Hell yes, they were good live. Kelly nearly got my tearing when he did a slow on Bright Red Star. My favourite of the night? Everything. Me thinks I'm having a hippie crush on Adam Zindani. He's uber uber cute with those dimples. These are something I can't keep to myself. Sure, getting knocked over, stepped on by this reallyfatguy and the aftermath might be a bitch but *shrugs* Like what Dax said, it's all worth it. No?

Picture 1: This really short guy in between 2 really big guy. Check out his shirt!! *dies*
Picture 2. Souveniers from the boys! LOVE LOVE baby!

Imma repeat myself, the aftermath is a bitch. It's way worth than a hangover. I'm bloody deaf! I have to speak extra loud to hear myself and people have to speak louder in order for me to hear them. ha. This. Is was awesome-mer than dancing your ass off in clubs. Trust me. The adrenalin rush is...orgasmic!

Check out the rest of their videos on my tube channel. Here's one of them "She's Alright."

Bring on the next gig!!

Because She's Inpired

2010-04-24T01:59:00.002+08:00

[photo source: http://tipsydarlene.deviantart.com/]

Hey ho! I'm back with an update, and this time - Imma tell you about my plans for the near near future. Like tomorrow, near! ha.

Blogger has been a bitch lately *shrugs* Oh well, as long as I'm able to update em' whenever I want to, it's all goood. So! About my plans, I'm considering starting a tumblr account, just so I can share my monthly, weekly, daily, whenever time wish-list(s). Don't know what I'm talking about?

Lets put it this way, I have a very strong interested towards fashion (and photography) - and instead of browsing through tons and tons of fashion websites and saving inspiring photos (yes, who doesn't do that?!) in a folder created specially for this, I've decided, well - plan to actually have a blog about it.

From combat boots, to flip flops - they all scream fashion. How do you define fashion disaster? When you mismatch them. Well, I can't think of celebrity who dresses really badly (for now!) but will a clown's fashion sense work? Aren't they suppose to be happy, things?! Why the scary make up and disastrous matching of colours! It's nor wonder kids are so afraid of them.

The clothes you wear spells your character. Not forgetting your hair. The wrong haircut might just score you a bad image, tho' you've been dressed top-to-toe by a fashion stylist. And yeah, accessories too!

And like I said, this is all in the name of planning. I've got to seriously work on my time management if I intend to do so. *shrugs* I know, it's a waste of time but I like writing and telling tales. It makes me happy when readers stumbles upon my blog. *tight hug*

Le sigh. Blame it on the inspirations. I hope it doesn't wear of that easily as it did back when I was into collage-ing my room wall. ha. I still have bits and pieces left on my wall, haven't really got the initiative to stick up new stuff! ;)

Well, here is where I stop. I'm just too excited to not share my plans with you guys! *fingers crossed* I really really hope it'll happen. And oh! David Corio will be in town tomorrow for a photography talk, be sure to check him out. Details, click here.

Links to David Corio on the sidebar.

Till then, toodles!

TipsyDarlene

Because YOU is Dumb

2010-04-20T15:38:00.004+08:00

I've been away, far away.

I've been drifting, drifting further

I've been long gone, gone away

I've been chasing, chasing the clock

I've been busy, busy with you

So it's finally rain, after days of melting mentally and physically! For the past few day, I've been taking a gazillion showers in a day! Why? ThankyouverymuchMr.Heat! Well, I've gotta make this a quick one - I know y'all been dropping by but I haven't' had the time to spent a couple of minutes to blog. Le sigh. I'm so sorry guys.Y'all must be getting really bored of me saying sorry huh? *bangs head on the wall* I'm a loser.

I have a couple of friends whom had quit blogspot and joined Tumblr instead. Is it any better? Or just cause' re-blogging pictures saves precious time of typing? Hmm? Well, I've thought of starting a tumblr but, I've already got 3 accounts (blogspot, deviantart, Facebook) to juggle and I'm already getting dead lazy in keeping them updated. OR, I should just stop everything and stick to good ol' text messaging?! ha.

For the past few weeks, I've been on the verge of breaking down. One thing that kept me going was my very own self-motivating lines. "I'm gonna finish what I start" and "You're in Uni - workloads are expected to pill up, you chose to further your studies - so don't complain!". Hence the no-complains!

Speaking of complains, let me just spend some minutes rambling yeh!? I can't stand people who complains about workloads/assignments given. You're given the time to work on it, what have you been doing? When dateline approaches you panic and curse every living thing on earth, why not yourself? For me, I'm both - yes, I'm still in the process of managing my time wisely. tsk* Wise eh?! Anyhoots, I may be really bad at time managements but hell, I wouldn't go around every social site (or to every friend) to complain about it! You wanted to further your studies, you applied for the course - why not blame yourself for all the trouble and stress?! Childish dipshits! You guys annoy me!

You're proally expecting me to come up with some cliche' line like, "never give up hope" - yeah I had but, it's one of the most used line in every damn emotional breakdown moments. Phfft! It's just like when you're hearbroken, going all sobbity sob about it, then your good friend comes along - pats you on the back and say "there are plenty of other fishes in the sea". Well, shit! I want THAT fish and not the 'other' fishes - so watchu gonna do about it eyh!? GET ME THAT FISH DAMNIT! Can't people come up with something more original? Come to think of it, they can't because every time something original is said - they'll be copies of it all over the place. -.- HOLY COW!

Today, I'm in a really talky and expressive mode. So if you don't like what I've said or maybe you happen to be one of those people whom I had mentioned, well too bad for you. Piss off! I shall end here, I will be back for more ramble. Hopefully. No worries, there is not where in the right mind of mine would I switch to tumblr or boring ol' wordpress. They suck. Go check them out and figure it out yourself, stupids! I'm not your nanny to have link you up on simple things like that. ha. BITE ME!

I shall end this by saying today..."Sarcasm, is the only thing I offer" anyone got a problem with that?

...okay I'm kidding, what I really meant was...

Booyah!
xx TipsyDarlene

A + B makes 3

2010-04-05T01:55:00.009+08:00

I want to write lyrics like AJ
I want to grow up to be like Mr Bennett
I want to have boobies like Pam Anderson's behind
I want to love you like how a fat kid loves choco cake
I want to see you again like how the sun shines everyday
I want to be brilliant like Mr Bill Gates
I want to hear from you whenever the sky cries
I want to have violets blooming in my garden
I want to have a cupboard filled with choco chips
I want to take pretty pictures with you
I want to inherit Kate Moss's skinny frame
I want to dance like Mark Kanemura
I want to have long legs like Mr Nightmare
I want to dream of anything sexy and romantic
I want to be able to talk about absolute nonsense and still make you smile
I want to have them sneakers like Yelle
I want to be myself and not her
I want to sing a long to my favorite song with you
I want to speak my mind like what he did
I want to be special like a box of Ferrero Rocher
I want, I want,
I want you to be mine...

...again.

P.s: These are fun facts, random thoughts of mine and fyi, I do not wish to have my bossums as Pam.A's behind! xoxo

3 AM Tonight

2010-04-03T01:10:00.008+08:00

Notice how I've been apologizing like crazy for the past few post. And this time, I shall not apologize. Cause' I know, I've proally lost at least half of my regular readers for the lack of updates. Boo!

Anyhoots, I've been really busy with course-works, Uni has been the bomb. I'm lovin' it - can't say I'm lovin' the workloads tho but..I'M NOT COMPLAININ'. I would definitely not work on em if I could but...there isn't a way out to success is there?! Okay, I'm experiencing brain farts - I got lost in thoughts and I can't remember the purpose of me updating my blog this time. Hmm.

Oh hey! The weather's getting pretty cozy these days. Yeh, I know - many of you hate it when it rains but I DON'T! After weeks of heat and humid air, I'm really really grateful for the rain/storm. Phfft! I sound like an oscar winner thanking my fans for the support. Meh!

I really need to talk about something more interesting! Well, I've been blogging about complete nonsense all this time. What difference would it make this time, yeh?! Oh oh!! I know, I'm learning how to speak Indonesian! Well, so far - I've only got the hang of them nouns and not them word.

I can say this "Gwe cinta sama lo" HAHA! Duh! It' means I love you. Funny how everyone likes learning how to use I LOVE YOU in different languages. To me, it's cliche. It's pretty weird having my boyfriend expressing his luuuurve for me in many difference lingo. I'd proally go "huh?! Say that again?!" or "English please!?" See what I mean. Yes, I don't like y'all going all fancy with words. Keep em' short and sexy baby! KISS yo!

But that's just me, some other girls might even want the guy to speak in a lingo she doesn't even understand! Communication barrier, much?! We live in a weird world. *shrugs* Yeh, speaking of weird - I have friends who does funky shits while being around hot chicks! I'm totally feeling your nerves dude! We girls can really get your adrenalin going! No?!

You know the line "Somebody please shoot me" and "OMG FML"?! How on earth do you want us (receivers) to react to that?! "somebody please shoot me" Erm. Okay, if I had a gun I would TOTALLY do that, for you annoy the shit out of me by using that dumb line. That's like saying, "Hey, please shoot me because that's the easiest way to die!" AND fml? Seriously? How on earth do you F^%# your life? Do share... My as well say "FMP FMP" instead (go figure!) Phfft! Oh yeah, we live in a mad mad world! Word.

I can go on and on about how weird people can get/are but, let's just put a stop here. I'm not sorry if I'd offended you because - I don't think I'm in a wrong speaking my mind out on MY blog. Well, haven't y'all read? The internet's a place for people to speak their minds. Cept' for some losers whom were stupid enough to talk shit about BIG people. Then again....nevermind!

I'll end this post with a happy note, read on please...

Upon the bright blue sky
Marshmallow clouds above my head
Rainbow bridge below my feet
As my heart skipped a beat
As your warmth intensifies
As you held my hand in yours
I have no regrets in loving you once more

...Because she's inspired...

♥♥
TipsyDarlene

Sincerely Me

2010-03-20T10:33:00.004+08:00

A getaway, I hope
[Updates on: http://tipsydarlene.deviantart.com/]

Sorry if I'd kept y'all waiting for an update here. Or not. I've got the sudden urge to update my blog since I'm getting pretty sick of the neverending workload. It's time to de-stress! Ha.

So what's new these days? I've been getting tons of tweet updates from Chuck Palahniuk - he's a writer, well known for his unique style of writing and stories too. I kid you not! I. Adore this guy! And speaking of stories, I really miss having late night reads every night before I doze off. Yeh! I have this habit of reading before I sleep but I've been too tired to even do that these days. Booo!

I'm not complaining, I only miss my routines. Know? Like, spending hours on FB (I KNOW RIGHT?!) and getting all distracted with twitter updates! Like the one my friend Julian Cheong had posted up "Mat kool mat kool kawanku, mari kita ikut mat kool! Main main selalu, syoknya syoknya ada mat kool! - Mat Kool sounds like a dildo, haha." Mehn, this really got me going! AND I can now tell you that - I will not be having Mat Kool pop for some time! Not until I digest this! Hah.

And because I haven't got much to update this time - yeah, my life has been pretty sadistic these days. Wish I could write more but I'm saving some brain juice for my assignment - next in line. Well, I could write more if I...bimbo blog? Yeah, I could start yapping about the prettiest and most expensive thing I bought last week and erm...proally a little bit about how bitchy my friends can be (Nawh, just kidding! I love y'all to bits) !!

So what would it be? Bimbo blogging? Awhh! Hell to the NO! I'd much prefer to talk about something people have to read to know about and not something EVERYONE ALREADY know about. Y'all diggin' me?!

I do hope this post had kept you entertained or AT LEAST you did read this on an attempt to kill time like "Hey, I'm bored waiting for Mr. ABC to come pick me up - ah! Let me read up on TipsyD's every-so-dusty-and-boring-blog" Hah. Sookay, you kept my reader's count up to date! I LOVE YOU for that! =p

Twinkling bright above me
Crystal water beneath me
Freshly warm earth on my palm
I write a post card from afar
Sending my love to you
You're not forgotten
As many days have passed
I still think of you
Because some day
I'll come running back to you

xoxo
TipsyDarlene

Because She's Crazy Possesive

2010-03-13T09:39:00.006+08:00

Dear ol' dusty blog,

I'm truly sorry for ditching you at your times of needs - I know you miss me and if it makes you feel better, I miss you too (right back at cha' homie! *wink*).

Yours Truly,
Your-damn-owner
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[The life of a girl who has conversations with herself]

And, I know y'all miss me too *cough* Hah. So while I was away, what have y'all been up to? As I mentioned and I will again, Uni has started. I have a string of assignments hanging on tip of my pinky now. Not a good sign. Honest! A minute of slacking might just put me at majory hugey risk! (*gasp* NO WAY!) =.=

Yeah, I have the habit of giving sarcastic remarks to my own remarks! Awh, c'mon, like as though none of y'all do it! No? Occasionally? No, too!? Nawh, you suck! And because I have no life outside the house (anymore) - I shall tell you bout my rotty life indoor. JOYYYY! So I'm officially grounded for the 9873621819 times! And this time, it's for good. Well, I figured if I'm being good & nice for the next few weeks, daddy might just let me off the hook - for a while. Yes daddy, I know I have to ace in Uni (too).

Mumsy complained that I go out too often, when I'm suppose to stick my butt at home working on my assignments. *sigh* Yeh, life's pretty much the way it is. Crispy crap, I miss the holidays now. I've really got to start reminding myself about my goals this semester/year (*read my previous post).

And like I said, I'm running on a bloody time machine. I've got to make this a quick and short update. Sorry for such a lousy update. I promise I'll write more, once I've completed enough of my work in order for me to slack for a bit. *wink* Y'all are reading about the life of a perfectionist here. Oh yes! An OCD-ian too! *smirk* Now shoo and come back again tomorrow or something!

xoxo
TipsyDarlene

She plays it Sleek!

2010-03-05T11:32:00.004+08:00

Uni has finally begun,
My holidays has finally ended,
So it's hello workloads and nerdy modes,
And goodbye late nights and snooze modes,
It's time for a change beeeetches!

I'm about to enter my second week of Uni in approximately 2 days time. Assignments will start then. Boo! I was (am) pretty excited to start working on assignments. Well, at least I wouldn't get blamed for hogging the computer all night long - I will then have a valid reason to stay on! AAAND, I could put my brain into good use. Yes, I have been growing mushrooms and potatoes on them ever since holidays begun. Basically a whole bloody farm is formed! Y'all diggin' meeeh!?

So far, every lecturer I've met has been pretty intimidating. I can't deny that I was already under majorey stress when they started explaining to us about our assignments and expectations in classes. I have no problem with any of them, it's just the tension! Y'know how it is, after months of not having to pay attention to anything over 2hours! It's cheeseballs!

Since it's a new beginning of my life in Uni, I want to ace! To be better than my nerdy friends! Damn they're good! And as cheezy as it may sound, I want to be a better person. FTW?! Because I'm a workaholic and a perfectionist (people who knows me well can be the judge of it!), I will not let anything get in my way.

I've got to set my priorities straight! I hate how I'm easily influence, ESPECIALLY when a guy is involved! Bullocks! I mean, c'mon - Imma girl, what do you expect? I ain't pulling no Mother Theresa trick! Nuff' said. And my previous post may have been pretty emotional, well yeah - I'm sure life has it's ups and down but I shall not let that change the way I am.

Apart from my goals and what nots. The humid weather is killing me softly inside out. Never in my life had I taken so many showers and sweat so much in one bloody day! The rain that showers us on certain evenings aren't even helping! Even with the air-condition turned on, I could still be burning and melting inside. Mind you, that line may sound kinky but hell no it's not! It's serious hot heat I'm talking about here! Damnation, really!

p/s: TMnet Streamyx, quit being a bitch!

It's suave yo!
TipsyDarlene

The Arcanum Of My Life

2010-02-25T12:52:00.005+08:00

Photo: TipsyDarlene on DA

I have desires,
Secret desires,
Desires left to be fulfilled

p.s: Only the beach knows them well...

I have a very strong feeling this post will be a very emotional one. Today I woke up with dark clouds and grey sky, this really annoys me - Although I'm always complaining bout the blazing sun and heat I have to face during the day but the truth is, I love the sun. I hate it when it rains during the day.

"It sucks when it rains, there's nothing to do indoor." ~Dennis Mitchell.

When it rains thunder storm, there is no way I can use the computer - unless I'm expecting a set of roasted modems and watching cable is far from possible. The damn rain would ruin the reception of programs I intend to watch. Bummer!

I'm hearing em' thunder growling over my head now. I have to make this post quick. Damn! I haven't got the time to get all hyped up in emotions yet. Blah! Guess, it's back to my novels this afternoon. *sigh*

I've got approximately 4 days left till I resume my classes. Can't believe how time flies so quickly, one moment I'm complaining about the 4 months I had to kill, the next moment I'm complaining about not wanting to start classes so soon. Ironic innit?!

I'll stop dancing my fingers on the keyboard now. I kept my word, I DID update my blog the following day. I'll be back with more updates, and oh! I'm sorry for the dull stories in this post. Hate to say I told you soooo...

Toodles Noodles loveys! Thanks for reading darlings!

xoxo TipsyDarlene

Cheers To That!

2010-02-24T23:35:00.009+08:00

Apologizing for the lack of updates on my blog is now a norm. Hmm. I'm sorry! I haven't been inspired much to blog. Or when I'm inspired to - something is sure to come up, leaving me kicking myself mentally for the bad timing and shit. Blah.

So since my un-identical twin have been buggin' me for an update on my blog. Here goes, I shall start by telling you bout my partner in crime cum the un-identical twin! We met on a random night out with friends, since we both share the same friends - it's no wonder that we could meet. Oh duh!

On that random night itself, we got closer and began exchanging information about guys we both dig and hate. And whatdoyouknow!? We both share the same taste in them boys, baby! My close friends will know me well enough to figure out the sort of guy I would date and the sort of guys whom I would rather be caught dead than to be seen out with.

To keep our looooong fairytale story short, we've only known each other for nearly 4 weeks (only) and we're already exchanging stories of our life and sex life (I'm kidding!) . I'm debating as to whether or not I should upload a picture of her but since she's terribly secretive bout herself I've decided to not upload em' here. I would proally have em' on facebook if I could find the time to upload em'. FYI, Imma pretty lazy person by nature. BOOHHOO!! :P

I'll be back with updates soon. Hopefully the following day. Come back again, loveys!

xoxo
TipsyDarlene

Sunset Glow

2010-02-18T00:39:00.011+08:00

Olla people!

Missing me already? Nawhhh! I've only been gone for...well couple of weeks! HAH. So uni will be starting in approximately 2weeks time. Boo! Just when I'm about to have fun bad news just HAD to pour in! Kill-joy, much!?

I just got back from my vacay by the beach. It. Was. The. Bomb. (tsk* you can say that again!) I could lay by the beach for hours because I simply adore it, I love the sound of the wave, I love the cool wind and I love the golden sun. Can't say that I'm hating the tan. And yes, I'm definitely tanner than I already am. Oh well, it's fun!

I had a great time bonding with nature - with crickets and beetle bugs hopping and buzzing around my chalet really is something! (sense the sarcasm, dipstick!) And taking Romeo for a walk by the beach and getting him dripping wet with salt water really is something he can never get back in the City. Oh! Did I mention that I'm a city girl? Yes, I am. I may enjoy the beach but I care very much about my hair - getting it all soaked wet in salt water and blazing it dry under the sun really isn't my idea of a healthy hair (which is why it's a vacation, GO FIGURE!) In this case, y'all are more than welcome to call me a bimbo! !@#$%^&* Dang!

So I've taken a couple of piccas of the place. It's pretty small but I'm diggin' the privacy a lot lot. It's the only resort (that we know of!) that allows their visitors to bring their pets! Which explains why Romeo was brought along this time around. Do enjoy them pictures - once I get my hand on the photos in my brother's cam, there will be more up on my DA and Facebook. This is about to sound uber cheezy but STAY TUNE for more picture updates yeah?! Not here but on DA and Facebook! Duh! Since when I've made it a trend to upload tons of piccas here?!

The sunrise on our way to our destination

Where we stayed

Lovin' the cute "kampung" house theme

...it's cozy, no?!

Spot the hammock! My fav!
Lying on it in your swimwear makes you feel sexy! *cough*

Like my handwritings?
We were allowed to write our shout outs on pillars/edges!
Coolios! Innit?!! I'm definitely going back there!

P/s: Click on the DA monster on your left to reach my DA profile. More pictures there.

Lovelove
TipsyDarlene

I Just Wanna Run Away

2010-02-05T10:31:00.008+08:00

My first February post...(that was totally unnecessary! Flip. I'm lame!)

As my fingers dances on the keyboard writing this post I'm currently feeling slightly nauseous, a little tipsy, crazyly hungover - hence the swollen eyes bags, killer muscle cramps and ubberly dehydrated.

Let's talk about yesterday, shall we? I spent my day going for a swim with Laura under the scorching 3pm sun. Which was pretty awesome, I love it when it's sunny. Can't say that I hate the tan. LikeasifI'mnottannedenoughalready! Hahah! And of course, I got myself working some muscles there. Shitzo! I sounded reaaally masculine back there. Dang!

When the sunsets, and the night blooms. I had made plans with my girlies! We had a blast! Drinking clear sure burns. And oh! Have I forgot to mention that he showed up by surprise while I was there? Well, sorta. His friend had secretly invited him. Yeh! He knows I sortakinda fancy him. And of course, I hadn't bother to spare him an invitation cause' I didn't wanna look so desperate for him to be there. Hey! I deserve a night with my friends too okay?! Well okay, I was actually hoping that he would be there (too!) since his friends were but I was, at the same time pleased to know that he wasn't there. It's just a mixed up feeling, y'know!?

It's like when I crave for an ice cream but I can't afford to have desserts when I'm tryna lose em' weight. At the same time I would be the happiest kid if I were to have an ice cream. Y'all following me? So that was how I felt when I saw him. *sigh* I hate how he is able to make me feel that way. Which is pretty sucky, no scratch that it's REALLY SUCKY! Cause' Idon'tknow! I just...(read my previous post!)

Finally got that off my chest. I really hope I don't fall for you. I can't. I will not. Really. I nearly died getting over my last heartbreak. And I don't need another. *sigh* Life is a bitch. Really it is. Then again, I miss the dramas I have in my life.

To walk alone
To enjoy the calmness of the night
To seize every moment I have
To take a mental photograph of you
To love the conversations
To treat you like everyone else
You will always be a friend

xoxo
TipsyDarlene

Never Kiss and Tell, baby

2010-01-31T17:41:00.006+08:00

Never the same person
Never at the same time
The phone chimes to the rhythm
She had the time of her life
To memorize every word meant the world
A feeling that was never felt in a long time
All she has is a picture of you in her mind
Every memory of you was vaguely remembered
And she had cherished them so so well
She wishes, She wishes
She wishes she had more time
She could write a million poems just to tell you that
Humming along to Letters To Cleo was her love
Singing along to love songs just to feel loved
It's all over now
Lipstick writings on the mirror had reminded her
Happy endings do not last forever
Believe not of the comfort you get across
Sadness has won again
Her world has crashed and burned
She no longer believes in true love and first kisses
She longer believes in love at first sight

How she wishes you notice her better...

Kiss Me Birthday

2010-01-21T22:17:00.004+08:00

So after reading my previous post, I've decided that it wasn't exactly an update. I mean, why read my blog to find out about something that y'all can find on google, no? Let me make up for the lake of originality kay? Every year begins with January, my month had started off awesomely with chill-out sessions, dumdumdeedoo moments, and of course (here comes' the cheezy part!) quality time with friends! HAH.

Let me start off with the night that had killed me physically. Yes! That night everyone had been looking forward to (I mean, the people whom were invited, of course!) - It's Laura's huuge birthday bash! How is it huge? Well, for starters - she'd splurge a whole lot on drinks, food and of course her outfit! And when I say splurge, I'm talking about 1k plus! HOLY SHIT, no?! You look so puurty that night, Laura! Lovin' your shoes! YOU GO GIRLFRIEND!

I know I'm a day late but heck!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY GIRLFRIEND!
You're legally legal now, party hard and drink safe woman!

Speaking of birthday wishes? How does one make their wish to the person an interesting wish? I mean, to go "Hey, happy birthday!" is just too common and uninteresting but to go "Hey, happy 21st, have a blast/have a great year ahead" is just wayy too cheezy. I mean, you'd obviously want the person to feel all warmth inside whilst reading your message. I do. I like it when my friends come up with silly terms/nicknames/messages to wish me.

I remember receiving one from a friend saying "Happy Birthday, moo. May all the green grass be yours someday." Yes, I know it may sound uber wrong but that's not my point! I mean, he friggin' got creative with his message and it's still fresh in my head. Y'all diggin' meeh? And yes, I was nicknamed back in high school. Who wasn't?! HAH.

Here's where I'll end my post. Do hope you had your moments reading this post and had got you thinking about the whole birthday wish thing. HAH. Till then, toodles people!

xoxo
TipsyDarlene

I Look So Good (Without You)

2010-01-20T12:16:00.020+08:00

I was just watching Jay Sean's Down on the tube and daym, this boy's got the body. I'm liking his clean shaven head and fecking hell - I would do him. Pretty darn awesome. Naw, I may not be a major fan of pop music but Down owns pretty crunk effects in the video! Kudos!

So I was meeting up with a friend of mine at this new place called "The Opera". We thought it would be nice to dine there since it was newly open, the crowd was slow and pretty sad. Why? They had shows, shows of elastic girls stuffing them skinny asses into a hula and scary mask-changing lady. I do not need another nightmare whilst munching on dinner and it also spells B.O.R.I.N.G. Seriously, who watches these anymore? After finishing our first order - we were out of there. I would give em' a 6/10 for the food and 1/10 for the place (they had clean bathrooms. HAH.)

Oh well, anyhoots...Remember Lauren Conrad from The Hill on MTV? Do you remember her (ex)bestie Heidi Montag? Yeh, I was watching E! the other day and holy shit! This girl's gone from a A to a C cup. The main thing is she has had some serious plastic all over. Girl, you're about to turn in to the next Mariah! Gross.

From what I heard on E!, apparently - she is still up for another round of booby enhancement (making it a D cup!). !@#$%^&* Heidi, tho' you (and your hubby Spencer) aren't exactly my favourite character in The Hills - I think you look better now, just don't do anymore boobie jobs, you might just end up getting back-cramps when you're 50! Speaking of her husband - again, can't say that I adore his egotism in the show but daym - you've got some serious abs going on! Barbie and Ken from bimbo world.

A Stranger To Myself

2010-01-13T10:12:00.009+08:00

I love movies with happy endings. And just last night I was watching this movie about girl making her way through hard times in life and earning her a place in Harvard. Can't say that I'm not inspired. One thing, she's inspired me to strive through tough times and actually working for what I want! And okay, this is about to sound ubber cliche but she made me want to be a better person in life. *rolls eyes* phfft!

Seriously, this movie is a must watch! A genuine recommendation from moi! ;) The title of the movie's called Homeless To Harvard. I'm sure y'all have heard of it, if you've been a loyal fan of the Hallmark channel. *chuckles* I...watch Hallmark occasionally, I love watching The Nanny, mehn - she has one helluva voice and character! ♥

And, speaking of last night - mehn, I had wilder to the wildest dreams (does that even makes sense?) Anyhoots, last night was fecked up - If I could relive last night, I would do it WITHOUT doing that things I had done. Blah! Nawh, isn't life a hoe!? It never stops reminding you about the embarrassment and the wrongs you've done. Damn it!

Believe it or not, (today) I'd spent my morning thinking of the right topic to blog about and had eventually given up and went back to sleep. TEEHEE! Pathetic, I know! This is what happens when you're trying your very best not to think about something that you can't and NOT suppose to think about (mehn, that was mouthful!). You start thinking doofus! Y'all diggin' meeh?

You know how sometimes artiste write lyrics that makes no sense? Like "If Tomorrow never comes..." (Tomorrow WILL come alright because, like or not - the world turns, the sun rises and sets and it's a new day, DUH!), "Umbrella, ella, eh, eh...." (HOMAIGAWD, has she run out of things to sing about? Already?) and many others which I can't think of in a blink! You see, these are the few little things that gets me going - oooh yeah!

Imma stop here, till then - keep reading! I would come up with a tagline like "Goodbye for now, stay in school" but that's just too...superhero-ey! No? It reminds me of The Incredible! (Say whaaa?)

Instead I'll end it with the good ol' TD's way...

Like a fallen leave
Like a droplet of rain
Like a dandelion blown away
Like me saying my goodbyes
Till then I will be back again

xoxo
TipsyDarlene

Because I love you too

2010-01-10T16:12:00.007+08:00

We're finally living the new year! What have y'all been doing since then? Me? Good question, think that's basically the reason why I'm updating my blog. Hah. Again, I'm apologizing for the lack of updates. I haven't been inspired to blog. Phfft! Yeh! I tend to talk boring when I'm not inspired. Don't y'all ever feel that way?

Anyhoos, about the new year! I've been spending tons of time with my friends. Since I chose not to take up a day job, to hang out with friends is sortakinda the only fun thing to do. Heh. Call me sadistic. I am.

Speaking of friends, I've had a few friends who'd hooked up with overly protective boyfees. Ones that banns em' from going clubbing and oh yeah! Certain hang out places too! ftw!? *shrugs* Seriously boys? Do you think by doing that you'll be able to have her all to yourself? Well, newsflash baby - it wouldn't last long. Why? Well, at first she'll proally feel all warmth because her boyfee's being ubberly protective. Aww! *melts* As days/months pass, she wouldn't exactly feel the same - sure she may still be happy but by keeping her from hanging out with friends isn't quite what a girl might look for in a guy.

A: Who would you put first? Me of your friends?
G: Erm...
A: If you mention me, I'll smack you!
G: Of course my friends!
A: Good, I love you baby! ♥ ♥ ♥

This excludes loserfying girls with no friends and basically no night life - that's a total different case. How come? Cause' they don't exactly have anywhere else to go - so why worry about being banned from going places? Yes?

I'm speaking for myself now. I'm not someone who can be controlled. I can't be controlled. You hate me going out at night with my guys friends, then shove it! I don't need another man in my life controlling my curfews and hang out places. Got that, baby boy?! ;)

There! I finally got that off my chest, can't stand controlling tards. Neither do I get how girls can be sooooo clingy and lovey with that treatment. *rolls eyes* Oh Ford, how love can be sooo blind.

I'll stop here. Thanks for reading my random babbles heartsies! I heart youuuuu!

xoxo
TipsyDarlene

Shut Up and Let Me Go

2009-12-31T22:35:00.005+08:00

We had our ups,
We had our downs,
You're the death of me,
I'll miss you but I wouldn't want you,
I'm moving on to my next destination,
Fuck you 2009,
Have fun fucking off.

Yeh, I had my ups and downs in 2009. I mean, hello! Our life ain't perfect - a perfect is just uber uninteresting. Boo! I've lost, I've gained but all in all it was an awesome year! *rolls eyes* Don't we all say the same ol' shit every year end!? Cliche' much!?

Since I haven't been blogging much, I figured I should give y'all and update! Instead of joining the hype of the new year, I'd much prefer to spend my time being a couch potato on the new years eve! Why? Well, I'd proally be stuck in traffic somewhere if I were to leave the house - not a great way to celebrate. No!? Besides, why should I join the norms of celebrating the new year outdoor? People just love coming up with excuses to party. No?!

And of course! Meeting up with friends whom I haven't met in ages (and I mean decades! lol). One would be my close friend since high school. Mehn, we had a blast last night until her boyfee got pissed over the phone for being out till late. Mehhhh, major turn-off! Guys, phfft! Why y'all so worried that your chicks might cheat on you? Chillaks! It's not like y'all are married or something!? Do-oh!

Let's brush off em' negative auras' and talk about pleasant things like...surprises! Presents! *skips* I love gifts, I love surprise gifts. They make my day! I got a surprise hadiah from Otakman whom had had a random trip to Bandung, Indonesia whilst being broke. Dayumm!
Thankiuuu for the voodoodoll sayang! I laaaarve it! And of course, a surprise call from a close friend in London ;) You know who you are. Come home cepat!!

My family will be hosting a BBQ party this weekend and yeah, I had to be part of the preparations too. This includes marinating chicken wings and shopping for groceries *yawns* So not my cup of tea but ah! It's not like I have anything better to work on anyways. Thats' what I thought until I got pruney fingers. EEEK! ...and mehn, strange garlic smell lingers on em'. GROSS! Try mincing cloves of garlic then you'd know how I feel! They. Smell. Bad. Shouldn't have helped out.

...Even rinsing my hands with lime juice doesn't help =( Me not liking this. Oh well, shit happens! *shurgs*

Aite people! I'm off for now! Will see y'all soon on the year 2010! May your 2009 be as imperfect as mine. May we survive shitty days like deadlines and breakups in 2010! And please, no more new year resolutions, they never work/fulfilled. Y'all can start by being more discipline instead. *wink*

I believe there's sand beneath my toes,
I believe that the sun will always shine,
Even if it rains inside me.

xoxo

TipsyDarlene

My Green and Red 2009

2009-12-24T11:06:00.004+08:00

December nights are here
Clouds overshadows the sun
Confetti filled my envelope of snow
Dreams I don't recognize
My ponytail of green and red
The new fabric keeps me warm
Oh, December
I heart your presence...

So an article I wrote got published on the website of our local papers back here and just yesterday I came across a picture of myself on an article regarding shopping habits during the Christmas season. So okay, I've been friggin' featured! Well, it's pretty awkward seeing yourself splat across the page, no?! I mean, it wouldn't be if my picture isn't the only gigantic one. Hah. Show-off, much!? Ngeeeh.

Here are the links, happy reading!
- Shopping habits
- Do It Right! (my piece)

This morning, I had decided to wake up an hour earlier to run some errands and chores I have lined up for today. I caught a flu instead! I shouldn't have been such a pain by being an early bird. I'm not a morning person, I don't do mornings! Yeh, I catch flus when I do not get my hours of sleep. What?! I like sleeping.

My plans to go shopping on the eve of Christmas is ruined. I'd proally lose my breath after 10 steps of walk in the mall. What? I'm breathing through my mouth (only) instead of my nose AND mouth. Gee, give me a break people!

I'm sorry if I bore you with this update. I don't usually update when I'm feeling...funny from the nose up. I have a pile of kleenex sitting right next to me. How fascinating. *sniffles* I promise I'll have a better update the next time. *pinky promise*

Happy Christmas everyone
Happy Holidays people
Enjoy yourself this month
Go December!

The Swimming Instructor

2009-12-10T19:27:00.006+08:00

Last Night,

So I've been to my first play which was held in KLpac! And yes, it was my first time actually being IN KLpac. Well, I've been there once but I never realize that it was KLpac because my parents (dragged us along too!) were there for some showroom thing going on. I would've uploaded pictures (as proof!) but like I said before I'm not a photo person. I don't picture blog. I would do that on Tumblr ;)

Anyhoots, let's talk about the play. It was mind blowing. Like, really. Truthfully?! I never thought a Malaysian play would turn out this good. I mean, for one - I expected the stage to be really dodgy and..lousy! And of course, I expected the actors to be speaking "manglish" and, y'know how Malaysian movies are made right? Terrible. Bad storyline, not to mention many pauses in between and stuff. But whatever about the Malaysian movies, I'm here to tell you about the play. Well, for a play-virgin (or whatchamacallit!?) I enjoyed every bit of the play. Yeh! I was so engrossed till I had unconsciously giggled out too loud. Whoops!

When a play is good, it IS good. How can you tell?! Well, it keeps the audience anxious to know what's going to happen next and of course to not notice anything happening around them (like my giggling out loud incident!). The storyline was good, superbly twisted and of course it had certainly kept me entertained with jokes and occasional cina-ness. So, kudos to the 3 actors, Niki Cheong, Davina Goh, and Michael Chen. Y'all got my respect! I would definitely pay to watch other plays in the future.

[The Swimming Instructor]
*I do not own the picture. Duh! I got it from google, people!

Nawh, I may be a little bit too over top over the whole play thing but hmm *shrugs* It's my blog, think I deserve - I HAVE the rights to blog about anything and everything. Booyah, haters!
Or maybe, I should really calm myself down before blogging. Hyperactive, much?!

For a more details about the play click here!

Okay, till then. Toodle lovelies!

xoxo yo!
TipsyDarlene

Circle Of Life

2009-12-04T12:15:00.007+08:00

Olla people! Me's back! Missed me? I know y'all did. *cough* Okay, fine. I'll stop being all self-absurd. Boo! So anyways - I've got something majorly ridiculous to blog about. Now ain't that wonderful?! Ngeh.

So here goes...If y'all have me on your Facebook, look up on my stats which reads, "I realize that...guys I once fancy in high-school are actually not as good looking as I though they were! Ahahahahah! Mehhhhhn..." So there you go! One status says it all. *smirk*

How did I come across this thought you ask? Well, I was out with my friends one night and we happen to be chatting up high-school dramas and, what do you know!? We both had feelings for the same guy. HAH! Now boy, hold it! Yes, I did have major feelings for you but no, I ain't feeling the same for you anymore. Hmm. So sorry, dude! You ain't that cute after-all. Plus! I discovered that you're not my type. Whoops! Why? Cause' I think you're a leeeeeettle too short for me and of course you've got a major ego going on up in that head of yours!

Tsk* boys! Y'all never change huh?! It will proally be a huge deal to find a guy who hasn't inherited the male-ego crap. Alien, much? Yeah, he'll proally be the hottest of the hottest in the market. *thinks for a sec* Well, maybe not! I mean, if he doesn't have the looks - he MAY NOT gain as much..sales?! compared to them loser-fys with good looks! Hey! I'm just speaking the fact.

Judging through experience and much observations. Majority of girls are willing to date losers with good looks compared to a chap with no looks but a good heart. eww! That sounded so...gay! *shrugs* I'm being shit serious here! Y'all gotta start taking me seriously! So anyhoots, girls will be girls, I mean who doesn't want to walk hand in hand with a hottie!? (Ditto!)

But boys, listen up! Yes, we may PREFER to date you jerkfaces but get this - In the long term, y'all are definitely out of the market. Stock overload! Hah! (Mind me, I've got too much of alcho and pool water up in my brains, so being uberhyper is something y'all should start getting used to!) Girls would obviously want to settle in with a guy who uses their brains instead of their face and *ahem* to talk. *rolls eyes* Dumb jocks!

Think I've said enough. *takes a deeeeeeep breath* And here is where I stop. I hope y'all had fun reading through my blabs. Tsk* I know I enjoyed blabbing. *wink* Blab. Till then, I'll be back soon with more random rambles or perhaps when I'm a little more sane. =D

xoxo bitches!
I love y'all!

Pop The Glock

2009-12-01T15:27:00.005+08:00

I've been all over the place emotionally for the past few weeks. Yeah, it happens when I'm being put into trance by a certain someone and then everything begins to shatters. All. Over. Again. *sigh* That's life, hos!

At this point, please note that if I'm not making any sense to you - it means I'm still in the midst of recovering and getting over it. Hah. I remember telling myself over and over again that I will not fall for that dang set-up ever again but, you manage to trick me into it. Damn you!

So yeh, here I am trying my very best to pretend that all is fine and all is great. Well boo! I'm not some object that you can fiddle around with as you like. Ya' dig!?

Anyhoots, I've spent my holidays killing novels after novels. Yes! I love reading. So bite me! OH! urm. Not forgetting - using this time to really watch movies that I've been missing out for the past decade. Damn, I'm a loser! I don't think I'd be getting a day job to earn the extra cash, after this long holidays I'm not sure when will I ever be able to experience this again. So why not seizing the moment while I still can, no?! Hmm.

And as you've read, I've been pretty emotional. Hah. Mind me. It's just some random emo moments. Honest, I swear I'm not all depress in real life. *wink* Hell yes, baby!

Speaking of emotions, ever wonder how some people are just plain dumb when it comes to solving a problem? I mean, when someone says you aint' doing your job right - aren't you suppose to look at yourself first? Why on earth would you even accuse that person for stating the truth, right?! What? You think you're all perfect now? Oh, please. Hunnay, you ain't all that. Just cause' you're some bigshot assHO amongst the crowd, that doesn't make you all that. Got it?! Try looking at yourself and change, that would proally reduce negatives comments from others.
Brainless doofus. No wait, wrong term used. Ya'll should be called STUPID PEOPLE!

Air heads, isn't the right term to use, but it is the first term that comes into my mind. Nuff' said.

p.s: USE YOUR BRAINS, "GENIUSES".

xoxo
TipsyDarlene

Never but Always

2009-11-28T00:01:00.004+08:00

This post will be slightly dark and "emo-fied", therefore there will not be any colours besides white and gray. Well bare with me aite? This don't or wont' happen as often. It just happen to be one of those times when I can really write about something and not talking blank :)

All this feels strange and untrue
And I won't waste a minute. Again
Open your eyes.

Okay, I have to admit. I can't let go. I can honestly tell you that I have no answer to that. You had left a huuuuuuuuuuge scar, a scar is something that stays with you forever. Something that will always remind me of something that had happened in the past.

I can't explain how I'm feeling now. It's sorta a mixture of both sadness, pain and happiness. Hmm. I hate it when I feel this way. People say, time will heal. Bull! It makes things worse. People ALSO say that you need someone else to take away that pain. Well, that's partially true but it's not easy when you've been killed so badly - not easy to bring someone back to life, innit?! (nope!)

Sure I may have written things about you and about how I'm moving on. Well, part of me have. Part of me, is still not willing to let go. I'm a serious nutcase, I have been doing just fine before this. Until...Will things be the same if that didn't happen? Will things be different then?

I just want to turn back time. I want to make things right. I want you.

xxx
TipsyDarlene

Dear You

2009-11-25T23:18:00.004+08:00

Rocking the wind on her favorite chair
Charming as it may seem
Tells a love story told once upon a time
Feelings bubbled up like rainbows across the sky
Floating on clouds like a dream
The lifetime that will never be forgotten
Remembering the promises
Learning from mistakes
Drops of rain flows downstream
Leaving footprints in the garden
Letters written of never-endings
The bakery bakes valentine
Truth to be untold
Holding on,
Never let go,
Don't let go,
Because it has became an exception in life
A longing to belong
The curse to love
Shattered hearts mend to break

...Because after so long, you still leave smiles on my face, I miss you.

p.s: I wrote all of this. Would appreciate it if y'all were to use/quote it with MY permission.

Not Getting Any

2009-11-23T23:11:00.007+08:00

Well shit, I was trying, and hoping to not turn out so desperate, clingy and bossy but I think I just did. Dang! *shrugs* Well, I've made a fool of myself plenty of times, what's so surprising about being a fool this time!? Yea?

Urm..actually, I do feel sucky. Crap. I'm a nuisance, really. So anyways, we can talk about that later (or not). Let me bimbo blog just this once, I had fun during my lunch date! *skips* Funny people can seriously make me go rolling on the floor laughing. Literally. No, really. Next up, we decided to drop by Toy's R' us. Yeah! I know, we weren't acting out age but...heck! We have the rights to feel childish at times. Sure helped me release them strains. My point is, I had a good time with people I have grown so fond of.

Apart from that, this woman at the ladies whom had appeared to be wearing a tube dress showing off bloody tattoos all over her tanned back dissed me. Move bitch! I have the right to do as I like. So what if I jumped que? It's not like I hadn't wait my turn, I just...didn't queue! You got a problem with that?! Bite me bitch! Just cause' you're dating some white guy doesn't make you all that. You've got "asian" written all over you. Seriously. Bloody "sepet" ass, I guess - them eye make ups ain't doing you much of a favour!

If I had only taken a picture of that woman. Like really, she had the guts to walk up to me saying "you should que for your turn". Well, I would if the damn queue isn't crowding the entrance. Dude! Seriously? Hadn't you use your chinese brains to think just then!? Oh wait, I forgot, you're a white chick wannabe! Joy! Phfft!

"If you don't like it, then just shove it!"

So hah. Sure feels good to let it out. Blah! Really. I don't usually get soo pissed over little things but this?! It's really ridiculous to approach someone just cause they didn't queue. ftw?! Mehn, she must've missed the chance of being a school parole back then. Tsk* Poor thing.

Okay, enough of her. I just looove being sarcastic when it comes to dissing someone. *hugs self* Yeah, sarcasm is the only thing I offer right now. Anyhoots, the holidays are treating me well. I spent most of my time catching up with sleeps and of course! Staying up late doing nothing - mehn, that's a dream. I never get to do stuff like that when I'm loaded with assignments, y'knoo!?

I said this once, Imma say it again - I love my country alot, I love the weather, I love the food, I love the culture, but the political drama is a deffo nuisance. Really. Phfft! C'mon even a 10 year old can make better and logical decisions. HAHA! Whoops, much!?

With this, I shall end my post. See y'all soon, yeh?!

TipsyDarlene
xoxo

Lost Tapes

2009-11-16T18:28:00.003+08:00

Ever felt like you've finally achieved something and that you would want more of it because it makes you feel...contented? I had. Or...have.

What is it? I'm talking about my academic dumbo! Yeh, I hate to admit this but I'm actually liking how I can achieve something with alot of hardwork and determination. Less complains of course. What I don't get people these days is that, they complain alot. I mean c'mon, if the task is really that difficult, the why the eff did y'all even start working on it in the first place?! There's something called freewill, you're living you're life - not your parents, not your pets, not your siblings, no one but you.

Go get a tiara instead deary, kthxdie!

So hah. I finally let that out my system. Wasn't so fond of people complaining about something they'd started doing in the first place. Anyhoots, I've been away for well pretty much donkey years. I've been busy with exams and assignments overload. Hmm. It's all over now, GLAAAAD!
Bring on the holidays baybeee!

Besides feeling awkward not having to chase time and having sleepless nights, I've been able to catch up on my readings. Yesh! I've recently gotten my hands on the latest editions of the House Of Night series. *skips* I'd just completed one book in 2 days. Awesome innit? I hate to admit this but yeah, I'm a nerd at heart. Laugh all you want, I love to read - I love to travel without going far. No harm in that.

Why travel without going far you ask? Well, when y'all read about something - it gets your mind running yea? Same goes to when you're reading a storybook/novel. It gets your imaginations running. Speaking of which, have I told you that I'm a big fan of scary shit books/movie? Yeh, I am. I like how I can challenge myself in reading them without scary the beejezees out of me. *wink* A challenge is what I love.

Kay, think I've said enough for this post. I wish y'all a good day and a pleasant week. Judging by the amount of free times I have now, I should proally be back soon. Love y'all tons.

xoxo
TipsyDarlene

The World Spins

2009-10-28T23:19:00.006+08:00

It stopped ticking
Is it time yet?
It isnt' shinning
Where are you Mr. Sun?
It's gray and blue
What happened to the flower beds?
I no longer need my clutches
I'm all grown up now

Uh huh...

I haven't been updating my blog for quite sometime now. Merci. Nor have I been on any social site (let alone texting) for that matters, I'm talking about twitter, facebook and deviant art. Sure, you'll see an update or two from me but honestly, I lost interest in all these stuff. To the people reading this whom y'all may know me well - I apologize if you dont' see much of me online anymore.

This only thing that matters to me-as of now, would be to live my life perfectly and to ace in my examinations. Because friends deffo can't help you in that, because I've shifted my interest to reading tons of novels instead of spending my time online and because I'd much prefer school to keep me busy. Call me a geek, kthxdie!

Not to worry, I do check up on updates in Facebook, twitter and deviant occasionally but as for now - I choose to put my studies first and my life straight. The only social gadget close to me would be my cellphone. Gimme a holla. =)

I can't promise you when I'll be back for an update. I'll do when I do. Hah. It depends on my mood to write. Gotta be inspired to blog y'know?! :P

This is not a goodbye...

A mixture of coloured jellybeans

2009-10-15T18:40:00.007+08:00

Not what I expected but sookay! *click for a bigger view =)

Hey y'all, I apologize for the lack of update. Well, actually I haven't been updating AT ALL since September the 21st. Gee. I suck. *shrugs* Can't say I didn't warn you about my lack of updates. *wink* First of! I'm very sorry for leaving my blog hanging in mid-air. Yes, I'm very much aware that I haven't been updating (at all). I've been pretty tied up with one assignment after another.

The good news is, I'm back!! I've finally submitted my last piece of assignment this Monday and I've been bumming for the last couple days. Gawd, it feels good to have long hours of sleeps without any worries about assignment deadlines. It does feels weird not having anything to work on though. I mean, one minute I'm all dressed and the next minute I'm naked. ftw?!

So how have you guys been? It's been nearly a month since I last blogged. My bad. I haven't been inspired to write - Honestly, I would've taken some time off to blog but I just wasn't up for it. The thought of getting my work done and to score good grades for it was the ONLY thing I've been thinking of for the past couple of weeks...

...Okay, not really, I've been on twitter though. I can't help it, it gets addictive, ESPECIALLY when I'm in the midst of working on assignments - sortakinda like a way for me to get let loose for a sec, y'know?!

Speaking of twitter, I really don't get why would people want to tweet about updates like, "I'm going to *Josh's house later for mahjong" or "In the gym now, working out (oh, duh! What else would you be doing in the gym then?) *mirror-image of himself in the gym*" or maybe "In a cafe with 2 pretty girls now *link to picture*". ftw!? Why would ANYONE care about what you did/done/doing? Or even who you're out with? I mean seriously, this guys I was ONCE following on twitter wouldn't stop tweeting bout his EVERYfeckingMOVE!! *faints* I would go in detail but, I've got a tad bit of sense in me not to humiliate him. Enough about this, just thinking bout how ridiculous he'd made himself look (not forgetting spamming my twitter wall) pisses me off.

Anyhoots, I hope I haven't bore y'all with my rambling. tsk* I'm getting pretty good at it huh? Well, isn't it the women's profession when it comes to rambling, talking and anything that has to do with our mouth? *wink* I've recently updated my DA acount. Yeah, after months of procrastinating - I've finally got myself to work on the pictures taken decades ago! Boo!

I'm running out of things to talk about. Hah. I shall stop for now, think I've spoken enough for this post. Will be back soon, lovelies! MARK MY WORDS, BEETCHES!

xoxo baby!

20 years of Blazing Dynamite

2009-09-21T01:38:00.005+08:00

Pictures never burn to make a perfect one
Fire in my life that never went off
Joy and tears will I always experience
I'm not afraid of wrinkles and age
Because life give you hell
and yet you can't help but treasure it
Make your time worth while.

TipsyDarlene~

After months of living in denial in hope that the clock would stop ticking and I would remain 19 forever. Call me imature but somehow turning 20 isn't exactly something I'm looking forward to. Although the gifts, surprises and wishes I get from my fellow peers and family members are very much tempting but on second thought I'd totally sacrifice that to stay 19 forever.

Turning 20, people expect more from you. You, mature both mentally and *cough* physically too. HEY! No sexual thinking please! Turning 20 also means that you'll be facing the real world reeeal soon. Yes! In no time, I'll be out of college and before you know it! I'm already busting my ass off for wages slash paychecks, not forgetting handling them bills. *sigh* Stressful innit? How I wish I was back in high school with no distorted sleeping hours, less boy trouble and of course! Lunches in the canteen's way wayyy cheaper. Boo!

Then again! Turning 20 means you're allowed to do things a underage isn't allowed to do. I ain't statin' any here. GO FIGURE! =p Earth to Grace! I've got to face reality somehow or another, no? I've enjoyed my life as a teenager, I regret not. I live life to the fullest. I have hopes, I have dreams but hey! Life isn't perfect, you don't exactly get what you expect 95% of the time. Tsk* Think boys and cash! *Myra's Miracles Happen playing in the background*

Myra? htw? I'm lame. Ubber. Lame. Next up! Despite turning a year OLDer! I ought to thank my fellow friends and loved ones whom had made this day a memorable one. I'm beginning to see why my parents aren't so fond of birthdays now. Tsk* Whatever, it's just a birthday. Need not make a fuss about it if someone forgets! =) I'm happy with what I have.

I'll end here. Hopefully y'all feel the same way as I do. I'm lovin' life still. <3

P.s: If you ain't seeing any updates on my blog, do visit my DA for updated journals. I usually do short updates there. =) Click Here

xoxo
TipsyDarlene

Picture Perfect

2009-09-16T11:10:00.004+08:00

Time will pass, things will change
Whatever is it, just remember...
the people whom was once in your life,
Your friends
I'll always remember you as the girl with a tumblr
Wouldn't trade you for the world
You will always be the person who...
...does silly things that makes me laugh
The girl with stories and advices for friends
The girl with boy trouble
Because she's my good friend
I will miss you so so dearly.

I'm gonna miss everyone who's left the country to further their studies. Sure, the goodbye was hard but hey! It's not the end of the world. We've still got FB, MSN, Skype and of course! snail mail! to keep in touch, yeh? HAHA! Come back for a visit kay? :) Mean time, dwell not on the sadness but the happiness lying ahead of you.

Love you still, girls. I'll miss y'all tons!

I Believe in Gummy Bears ❤

2009-08-31T11:19:00.011+08:00

I'm back! With an update! HAH. I've been procrastinating like feck since assignment briefs were handed out (a week ago!). Got pretty tied up with my assignments piling up for the past week- more like I've been spending my time TRYING to start working on em'. Boo! Not forgetting spending quality time with my family (I'm a homie person. heh!) and close friend(s) who'll be leaving on a jet plane to a foreign country to further their studies. *sigh* It's weird how people tend to appreciate whatever they have when it's leaving/gone. This shucks. HUGEEE TIME!

Oh! Did I tell you guys that my college had been put under quarantine for a week? Yeah, our mid semester break which was supposedly happening in the month of September (I think!) is brought forward due to this whole virus spreading shit. JOY! We ain't getting no holidays after this, nawh! Guess the damn petition shit really worked out huh? I heard one of my lecturer has been infected but I ain't mentioning no names. Sorry, loveys. *wink*

It's my country's 52nd birthday today!! I celebrated it by spending my evening at my relative's place. Yea, we had a barbecue party, we and our two pet dogs (Fiffy and Prince the toy poodle) ❤ ❤ I stuffed myself with chips, chicken wings, hot dogs and everything else roasted! HAH. One thing though, because of the whole H1N1 virus spreading so so rapidly, even the whole flowertruckparade thing is canceled. Not forgetting that it's the Fasting Month, gotta cut them "parade-ians" some slacks, no!? What a shitty year this is, no?! Why?...

I got messed up during long holidays in mid year, damn H1N1 is getting everyone worried and paranoid! St*pid face mask (the ones where you literally breathe in garlic and onion breath after having chicken rice for lunch! Gross!!). Not complaining - proally it's just me feeling ubber shitty! Well, I can't help it, I'm in my final semester - to NOT SCREW UP, is the only thing I'm worried and stressing about and with the group assignments going on...I'm screwed. No, really.

I hope y'all understood what has been said. *makes a funny face* I wasn't really speaking the right language today. Merci. I'll be back soon, promise - just can't exactly tell you when. Tsk* What a promise to make eyh!? :D

"It's okay..."

xoxo

You Will Survive

2009-08-27T01:24:00.005+08:00

The fridge is filled with the emptiness of cool air
Crunchiness of Oreos are long gone
A half eaten cheese burger left cold on the tea table
Droplets of water fills the dirty dishes in the sink
The air is warm and still
Things could be better but never avoided
Someday somehow it will come to a bittersweet end
What last the longest would be the memories and thoughts of you
Kodak moments will always be kept safe in the shoe box
Heart shapes and paper planes floats away in the rhythm of the river
Saying goodbye will somehow trigger the tears
The windscreen is always the future to a better start
Should there be an end in your story
It's your turn to make that decision
Because life goes on
The future twists and turns
Hickory dickory dock waits for no man

~TipsyDarlene

Snakeskin Mini Skirt

2009-08-22T14:16:00.007+08:00

“Too many guys think I’m a concept,
or I complete them,
or I’m gonna make them alive.
But I’m just a fucked-up girl
who’s lookin’ for my own peace of mind;
don’t assign me yours.”

— Clementine

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I know I haven't been updating you guys with real updates. Ngeh. Try scrolling down and see how many poetry I've written. When I write poetry instead of an update, update - it meant that I'm pretty hyped up to blog but just too lazy to blog, blog. Y'know?!

I'm currently listening to SoKo. She's impressively funny with her lyrics. I don't mean HA HA funny but sarcastically funny. She sounds, more like she reminds me of our very own Malaysian artiste Zee Avi. If you're into groups like Architecture in Helsinki and Pulps, y'all should really go check her out and trust me you won't regret it but in any case you DO...you've got some issues, man. Seriously. *smirk*

Next up! I've got assignments and my life put on the suicide lane. Gah. At first I was toally looking forward for assignments and stresses to be piled up on me but now that assignment briefs ARE out and I've got approximately 4-5 weeks to work on all 4 paperwork assignments...It ain't fun man, seriously. With the whole fuss about the H1N1 disease spreading faster than the amount of followers I get on twitter is no joke and with students secretly sending out text messages to one another asking to sign a petition to shut down the college just because there are a couple of SUSPECTED cases. Ridic, really. I mean, not to be mean but I've got lessons to cope with and classes to attend.

Hell no, am I going to sign shit petition to close down college just for YOUR sake of a week off. Do you honestly think that getting a week of college will keep you safe from the disease? Reality check please, what's gonna happen when you take a week off? You have extra replacement classes. That's shitty, not forgetting the shit load amount we are paying for them classes. If you're really THAT paranoid, do us all a favour and take the WHOLE YEAR off instead. Douche!

Just cause' I'm against this whole petition shit, that doesn't mean I'm not afraid of this deadly disease. True, staying home is safer but c'mon. You gotta be kidding me - like as though with that week off you'd be staying home, with that damn face mask on! Phfft! I doubt so. Or do you really think that having the week off just so that you'll be able to hang out and spend time with your friends will keep you safe from H1N1? As if H1N1 only exist in the college compound. Pretty pathetic innit? Doofus gumball! Wake up already!

There! I proved my point! Dumb things like that just ticks me off. *rolls eyes* Seriously, where y'all have your brains at? Up yours? Urgh. Cheer up darls, I'm sure someone out there somewhere will be backing you up on going against my point. *wink* And if y'all really hate me that much in proving my point, why the hell are you still on my page reading till the end? HAH.

XOXO
TipsyDarlene

Dancing in the Moonlight

2009-08-19T00:29:00.004+08:00

if you want me, a cherry on top
the pick of the peck, the creme de la crop
if you want me you better, do better than that tonight

if you want me, it takes more than a wink,
more than a drink, more than you think.
if you want me, i'm not a piece of ass;
a one night stand, a storage shed.

if you want me, then stop begging.
i don't put it out for charity.
if you want me, there's no discount price tonight

When It Turns Blue

2009-08-12T09:50:00.004+08:00

I will listen
I promise not to tell
I'm not stupid
Thoughts of my own makes sense
Do not fade
I'll colour you pastels
Stay calm
Listen to the sound of ocean waves
and morning chirps
Castles in the sand will be soon washed away
I would love to have a life with you someday, oneday...
Because poetry takes me far
Reading travels me to a world unknown
Imaginations of forever always
To look out my window
With a sea view waiting to be admired
Never love someone
Whom is not able to love you back
Thoughts haunts me
Hitting the "delete" button is somewhat heartbreaking
Letting go of memories isn't an option
Because promises are meant to be broken

❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

TipsyDarlene

The Virgin Paintball-er

2009-08-10T11:12:00.010+08:00

Last Saturday, I had spent the entire afternoon being painted! Yeap! We played paintball. Well, here's big news - it was obviously my first time actually playing paintball (The last one during masscolympics was diggywiggybangbang, it wasn't even a paintball game, game! tsk* The match lasted for 1 minute, cause' there were 60++ teams competing! ftw!?) So anyways, we were assigned under the lead of a pro (not a noobie like moi!) paintball-er William (I only know him for that! lol.) in Team C! Yeah, we named ourselves the "cacat" team! aka we. so. lousy. (lousily good! whoots!) So here's the deal, there were 3 teams in total 5 players in each. Go do the math, cupcake! We beat every single one of them, heck yeah! We were undefeated! *sly smile* I know! We wouldn't have them skills if we hadn't got a good strategist and leader! Thank you, Master William! *cough*

The day ended with a bomb, we were MENTALLY tired. Not quite physically, we had to duck and fire most of the time - hadn't done much running though. Here comes the sadistic part, well it is for me. I hadn't been scarred. Thing is, I WAS shot down (basically being kicked out of the game) by my opponent but the pallet/bullet landed directly on my left hand and DAMN it burned BUT, only for a minute or two and the firing of leftover pallets/bullets between my bro and myself - I was shot too, but I wasn't left with a scar or even a bruise!! Damnit! I was hoping for a scar or something more brutal. Hah. What? Whoever said paintball is a decent game? :D So to sum things up, I'm still a virgin to paintball bruise and scars! Boo!

I can't wait for my next session with new people! Whoots! I should've known that Paintball is so bloody addictive! William mentioned that paintball-in' is as expensive as golfing only less decent compared to paintball. Y'all gotta be prepared to get gritty' and ballsy! Jules once said this to me, "you're the most ungirly girl I've ever met!." That doesn't mean I act and dress all macho kay? I just love sports! Hah.

Skipaloooong

2009-08-07T14:54:00.010+08:00

Hello people, so sorry for the lack of updates, been busy with my first week of college (yes, holidays are over, pumpkin!), editing and uploading pictures on DA - sure takes up ALOT of my time but I'm not complaining, I love what I do and will give it my best shot! *wink*

I have to seriously find reasons to not have the urge to come online this often. I've been bumming online alot for the past few months. As I once said, I've been spending alot of my time on DA (DeviantArt) and last night, ET had showed off the link to her website on tumblr ---->> Click ME!
I. Fell. Madly. In. Love. with it. Yup! Besides, daily updates from Chictopia, tumblr would be my next obsession. You've SOOO gotta check out them pictures uploaded by fellow tumblrs. They are awesome and I can toally relate to them. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ If you know me well enough, you'd know the sort of things that I'd fancy :)

So anyways, put tumblr aside for a moment. Have yet to decide as to whether or not I should have an account there. What? I don't know if I can find the time to update em'. I already have an account on DA and that is one helluva jiggywiggybangbang! Hah. A friend of mine has recently posted a link to a video on Facebook and I found it on orsm.net, then decided to share it. Y'know what they sayyyy, sharing is caring. Phfft! That was corny! (please scroll down for the video!) Hope y'all like it. It sure proved me wrong. All I can say is - first impression do not always count. Not anymore. Nnnope!

Treadmill Fail - The top video clips of the week are here

As a closure...

[My DA account]

Wipe away those tears
Leave all your problems behind
Everything will be alright in due time
Close your eyes and dream
Imagine life with no heartaches
No farewells, sadness and goodbyes exist
Hold on to every promises made
Free that purple butterfly from the jar
Everybody wants to be free
Stretch your arms and reach out
Times together will never be enough
When life crashes on you
Every minute waits ahead of you
Make or break it, they will always love you

kisskiss

Dear You

2009-07-31T00:15:00.004+08:00

[photo source: Iza-DeviantArt]

I remember you well in that Hotel
A thunder of dream that strikes through me
The cold breeze that chills the pore whenever the wind blew
Love songs playing on itunes
The heart of a legend
For me, you'd made the exception
I was in love, very much in love
Taking my hand and holding me tight
Opened up my heart to your world
Not letting go of my hand until I'm strong enough to stand on my own
How I wish I own the world
How I wish things were different between the both of us
How I wish I could turn back time
Stay, don't leave
Love me like how you used to
Games played, I will not always win
Heartbreaks will I not go through again
Enough is enough
Some things are better off left unsaid
Breaking the norms that carried us this far
We'll survive the day somehow
I'll somehow survive the next love game in life

You know how sometimes you wish you could turn back time - hoping that you'd be able to mend things? I'm feeling it now. Come to think about it, I'm glad I'm over this phase - although I would love to turn back time but then again, if I were to turn back time, will it even make a difference? Or wouldn't it? It had somehow made me passive towards pleasure, lust and love. I'm glad I was strong enough to overcome the heartache and games played.

Been pretty unwell for the past few days - tsk* Wish I was able to lose them pounds during the blues but noooo! I'm still feasting on tortillas and chocolates like a fat posterior. boo! Anyhoots, I'm honestly not feelin' it. Falling sicker to the minute. *finger crossed* I'll see the doctor soon! Jo said if after day3 and I'm still as sick, then I should go see the doctor and it's well only day2! Haven't gotten any better tho but looking on the bright side, being sick give you one helluva sexy voice. HAHA! I'm soooo weird.

Off to bed now gotta get up early for class. I hope, I hope that I will not be late. *sigh*
Be back soooon! Miss me loads! X) *cough*

kisskiss

Apo Eh Tai Tai

2009-07-24T14:28:00.007+08:00

Last week was Karmini's farewell party. *sniff* She left for Perth, Australia last night. We were all at the airport sending her off (I'VE FINALLY BEEN TO KLIA! BAH! HOW JAKUN-FIED IS THAT!?). Next up would be Anis's plane - which will be in September. Geez, if I could do just anything to get them to stay or even to turn back time....I would. Honestly. Swear.

Before Karmini's flight night, we managed to persuade her to join us for a 2days1night vacay to Serendah, Rawang. Yep! It's a place where there is no, none, nada, nil internet line, network connection. Yes! We were in a bloody jungle.

[THE waterfall.]

[The pool filled with cold stream water. I miss it the most.]

[The glass house we stayed in, pretty innit?]

Surprisingly, it wasn't as spooky as we(All 5 of us!) had all expect it to be. For me, I expected mosquitoes to be up our ass every second of the day but it was all good. Everything was fun, the trip to the waterfall was awesome, we all had a good time being a bully to Nees and Fara, the swimming pool was cold and clean, the place we lived in was comfy and very jungle-ly! Sad though, I had not manage to catch a glimpse of any monkeys or baboons up close (not even from a distance! nope!) Besides' that it was deffo a getaway we all needed and I meant EVERYONE. Surely I'm gonna miss the times spent there with the bunch of crazy people.

It's surprising how my friends and I always have plans for every week to come. Well, it's all coming to an end soon. Let's just hope we'll think of something soon but what can we do when we are all broke. Seriously, we've done so much in this month till we sorta spent every penny we have in our pocket! Genius! Meantime, watch the video below. It's a glimpse of our vacation spot. *wink* I apologize for the bad camera angle and stuff - do hope you'll be able to hear Anis's scream when Karmini walked into her while she's using the bathroom. rofllmao!

Questions never answered
Words never said
Wish she could change your mind
and make you hers again
Wish she could turn back time
and spent the times they had all over again
Can't say that she miss it
Cause' she's not suppose to
Don't keep her hanging like how it was before
Keep the flowers blooming
Cherish the summer time
Leave the sore ones behind
She wishes for a replay
Always and never forever

p/s: More pictures and videos on Facebook!

Holla!

Straight Up, Ho'!

2009-07-15T16:59:00.003+08:00

I realise something. About why I haven't or couldn't be bothered to catch up with old school mates, more like reunions don't excite me as much. Know?

Think cause' it became clear to me that why should I care about what are they up to or how they look 5 years later? Why? Will it make me happier to see that they've reach puberty? Or cause' they've popped their cherries? Hmm...Neither! Can't be bothered really.

Can't say that I dislike catching up with everyone of them. Only a few are jewels, they others are plainly rocks and pebbles. Now, that sort of people really gives me a swing of my anger. Really but! They ain't worth my time. Boo!

Why would you be all cocky and fucked face when you've traveled to almost every part of the world on summer breaks and to have studied abroad while we locals are taking our Diplomas in private colleges back here instead? Well, huggey-biggy deal! Yes, you may be all that to the losers that worships you for your big bucks but hear up! I ain't fecking impress with how you'd turn out to be.

You might be relying on your folks fortune for now - but not for long. Sooner and one fine day, you might just not be who you are now but worse! You heard me right, I ain't giving a poop about some ho' face like you. Quit acting like a stuck up about your financial state because some people aren't as loaded as you are. For now. *smirk*

So why don't y'all stick them stinkin' dollar notes up your arse and march your way down the milky way? Hmm...We wish you well. No wait! Do you need someone to escort you too? Well I'm sure they won't cost much. Judging by your financial states, I'm sure y'all be able to pay up. No? Don't come looking for us when your life isn't how it is now because nobody fancies being friends with a phoney. Please don't go thinking that you own the world just cause you're rich. Remember and remember this well - someday those money your parents are spending on you right now...will be gone. It's just a matter of time, love. *wink* Love loves hunnay, may your cash be as awesome as your stuck up life.

"...And lately, I just don't give a fuck!"
xoxo